Wednesday, December 31, 2014

2014 Numerics Summary

The grand totals for 2014:

Miles               Time % of Time
SWIM 164.55 117 hours 43 minutes       19
BIKE 4672 277 hours 18 minutes        45
RUN 1455 225 hours 17 minutes     36
BIKE COMMUTE 531 not tracked
SUMMARY: 603 hours 37 minutes
ave 11.6 hours a week

That's 289616 yards for those of you who prefer that unit. How did I end up with an odd number like 6 yards? Prolly an OWS.

Races:
Half marathon, marathon, 10K, 70.3, 140.6, 140.6


What a year!

Another commute, this time because it was COLD

RUN 3 miles in about 30 mins, commute in
RUN 3 miles in about 30 mins, commute home

Happily it was a short day at work so my commute wasn't in the dark. It was, however, bitter cold in the morning. The weather station read 11F! Last night I found a web app to calculate the wind chills if I were to ride or run. The expected weather temp was 18F, so I used that. Biking at 15mph was a 4F wind chill. Running at 6mph was 10F. So obviously I wanted to run and not ride!

And of course the run in to work was into the wind. By the time I reached the car my nose was numb, as I found out when I went to wipe it. Otherwise, I was OK.

The run home of course was with the wind, and I overheated a little. No worry there, I'm usually happier over heating.

Since yesterday, my calves have been heavy and swollen. Too much salt? Too much running? Too much sitting? Dunno, but ugh it's uncomfortable.


Tuesday, December 30, 2014

Broken 11 mile commute

RUN 8 miles in 1:14
RUN 3 miles in about 30 mins, untimed

Brrrr! And it's supposed to be even colder tomorrow. It has me thinking I'll run to work tomorrow instead of biking.

Great run, after taking yesterday as a mostly-sitting rest day. After walking the dog, I looped out around TGP then towards work. I decided on the way to do 11 instead of 10 today. Not sure why. So I had to tack on the extra mile by looping around smoker's park then into FoPa to round it out. It still amazes me how the garmin seems to slow down the more I watch it.

Once at DH's car, I grabbed my bag and was struck with a left sided, half-way down my back cramp/spasm. During the run, I had a mild pain under my ribs but I thought it was diaphragm. This spasm persisted most of the morning then faded on it's own. It came back as soon as I grabbed my bag to head home, then lingered the entire run home. Not painful really, more annoying. Wonder what caused it?

Sunday, December 28, 2014

Last six miles to 42 mpw

RUN 6.1 miles in about 57 mins. Or was it less...?

This week seemed to be all about the 6's. 6 on Tuesday. 16 on Wednesday, 6 on Thursday, 6 more today. This run felt soooo much better than Thursday's 6. I was going to run trails in the nearby park, but mom said she'd rather I didn't. Easy enough, and probably faster if I didn't. I'd rather visit anyway!

47F yesterday, 28F today. Oof. And of course, wind.

NUMERICS: 42 miles this week was the goal.

SWIM Zero
BIKE Zero
RUN 42.2 miles in 6:36
BIKE COMMUTE 12 miles

Saturday, December 27, 2014

8 miles by little out-n-backs back home

RUN 8 miles in 1:15

Happily I looked at my run totals before planning the weekend. I thought I needed only 12 miles to hit the goal of 42 for the week. But a double check showed I needed 14 instead! I didn't want to do them all at once either way, so it was a matter of how to break it.

I had promised my time to help with the family, so I stuck to a schedule to finish by 8am. This meant I started in the dark. Dad helped with a flashlight, and I delayed as long as I could to let the sun come up. In the end, I didn't need the light.

As the trend has been, it was unseasonably warm -- 47F! However, there was wind. There's always wind out there! Once I reached the school road, I decided on little out-n-backs from that intersection until I hit the number needed for the run home. I did an out-n-back by the school (into the wind), then a short out-n-back up the hill until a mini-goal, back down the hill, then up JG's road until the next goal mile point. It's funny to think that with all this running, I've never run on JG's road east of the school road!!

What a beautiful morning! Even the wind was nice. It was so quiet, so calm, so pleasant.

Thursday, December 25, 2014

Christmas run!

RUN 6 miles in 57 minutes

No group run today, canceled for the holiday.

This was tough. I was dragging and less than motivated for a peppy run. I did a TGP loop. This put me at 28 miles in the last 3 days. No wonder I'm dragging! But it's good I did it, I knew I could but it's still good.

This set of runs after this weekend will allow me to rest 10 days until the next long run. A sort of rest week without a rest week.

Merry Christmas!

Tuesday, December 23, 2014

Early morning run in spring-like weather

RUN 6.1 miles in 56 mins
BIKE COMMUTE 6 miles

Instead of running to work, I ran the TGP loop from home. I plan to run to work tomorrow, so don't worry I won't miss out on that two-a-day fun.

Like spring -- really!! Felt warm in the 40's, birds singing in the park, stars in the sky, humid from yesterday's run, and some mud. I got to Appreciate! the starry night sky, the sun coming up, and a beautiful morning!

Yesterday's neck/shoulder niggle is gone? Also gone is the pain I had in my right arm Saturday after the QP run. It was a sharp pain that came on afterwards and lingered a little while. It only hurt when I went to reach for something out of my pocket, very specific. But painful!

Monday, December 22, 2014

December New Moon

Total rest day. No Evolve swim, it's raining so no commute and shorter dog walks. This isn't a bad thing, I have a niggle in my right shoulder/neck when I turn my head too far left. (So quit turning your head so far left!)

Can't complain about the rain, I do like it! But I miss my bike commute and dislike having to pay a parking meter.

New moon today, and as always I look to the moon cycles as benchmarks of the passage of time and reaching goals. And the year is almost over, time to really focus on 2015 goals. First things first (I'm the realist!) let's just set some goals for the week.

No more monster, he's really been a pain lately.
Hit 42 miles smartly, as in don't get injured or push for some magical number
Get some social time this week with friends for the holidays, it will feel good!

Wearing my moon socks :)

Sunday, December 21, 2014

Solstice Run, new shoes, and found my moon sock!

RUN 5.4 miles in 49 mins

I'd only planned on doing 5 miles, maybe even only 4.7 miles once I did the math and realized I would end up 0.3 miles over the goal of 40 if I ran the full 5. But as you can see, it didn't go as planned.

Also didn't go as planned -- TH was going to join me at CCP but she wasn't feeling good. Why push sickness in December, in the off-season, and in a holiday week!? She's smarter than I am, I prolly would have run...

So a change of plans (theme of the weekend) and I just ran out-n-back in Forest Park from work. The run felt good and my feet seem OK with my new shoes -- the HotPink! Adrenaline 14's I just got. I'm thinking I'm going to order another pair of 14's online while I can.

While doing laundry I looked behind the washer for something I dropped and found my missing SockGuy moon sock! It's been missing for ... over a year!? Funny to find it so I can wear it on a new moon day tomorrow :)

NUMERICS: 8hrs and 51 mins

I'm going to start tracking how I ran the week so I can log the weekday/weekend shift I need to start working on. Right now my back to back runs aren't long and I'm putting the mileage in the weekdays as I build up. 8/3 means a two-a-day

SWIM 5100 yards
BIKE 8.5 miles
RUN 40.7 miles as 8/3; 3.5; 6.8; 14;5.4
BIKE COMMUTE 24 miles a full week!

Saturday, December 20, 2014

14 miles, Eva, Ryan, HOBBIT!

RUN 14 miles in 2:15

My original plan was to run 14 in QP. When I thought I'd be running alone, I switched to FoPa. But then new friend EW wanted to run QP, so I switched again to meet her. She ran the first 4.5 with me, sharing news about her recent benchmark accomplishment at work! How exciting!

The next loop I ran alone, but knowing RM was planning to join me. I didn't see him until 12.5 miles and he'd already finished his workout. So we walked/jogged a bit more so I could round out my goal of 14. The 14 is an estimate, I missed .5 to .8 miles with a Garmin error and we walked a bit too. I'll call it 14 and good.

The run felt great, but my energy wasn't there for all of it. My left hip still has that dull ache but it's not constant. By the time I hit 11 miles I was dragging. I ate brekkie around 5-6am and here it was 11:30 and I'd only eaten half a powerbar for the run! I wasn't hungry, I was beyond that, but I needed to eat more to keep going. Made for a mental battle to finish.

And my Pink! Adrenalines need to be retired. They hurt my feet last week and hurt again today. My replacements are sitting in the box, I should take them to CCP with me tomorrow. I'm running with TH!

DH and I saw the last Hobbit movie tonight. Last night we finished the second movie, so it's been a Hobbity few days.

Night is now falling
So ends this day
The road is now calling
And I must away
Over hill and under tree
Through lands where never light has shone
By silver streams that run down to the Sea


And a Gandalf quote: You have but one question to answer: How shall this day end?

Friday, December 19, 2014

Swam alone, worked alone

SWIM 2600y in exactly 1 hour!
COMMUTE 6 miles

Things I keep forgetting to mention! I've remeasured my commute with an app and it's really 3.2-3.3 miles. So the 500 bike commuting miles benchmark I hit this past Monday was really more than 500. But I'm not changing it. 500 commuting miles! Divide that by 6 (the usual round trip distance I log) and you get 83 commutes there and back again.

RM was going to join for the swim, but he slept in. He "missed" the 87F pool water. That's what Dan said it was anyway. I liked it, not sure anyone else did. I did a 400-50K-4x100-50K-300- etc down to 200, making each of the 100 sets 5 seconds faster than the previous. The 4x100's came in around 1:55-1:57, the 3x100's around 1:50-1:54, and the 2x100's just under 1:50. Not as fast as last weekends swim, but still good.

Some time ago, probably January 2013 I did the 1 hour postal swim and did 2500 yards. Today I did 2600 yards and that was with breaks and rest intervals. I should do another postal challenge and set a new benchmark!

My commutes in the cold are getting better. My clothing choices and finally nailed down, I have a great lighting system, and I'm pretty adapted to the 6 (or whatever) miles. I wonder what would happen if I added a half mile, would my body say "hey what?!". LOL.

I also keep forgetting to mention all the doggie walking I've been doing. You know you're ready for your off season to be over when you do something like that. First I download an app and use the app to log dog walks (and bike commutes). Second I'm surprised at how far we walk -- 25 miles at least since I don't log all of them -- sometimes doing 3 miles a day! Third I'm wondering now if I'll start tracking that like I do my running?

Long day, worked alone in lab and for awhile even wondered if it was really Saturday. The floor was pretty empty. I had an emotional crash following a phone call in the morning, I reeled a few hours before I got back together entirely. Up down. Up down. That sums it up some days. But both experiments worked for me, so I ended on an up.

Thursday, December 18, 2014

Grinches, dEvolve, and Dunlap Disease

RUN 6.8 miles in 62 mins
COMMUTE 6 miles

First off, it snowed! But not as much as they predicted. The 0.5-1 inch was more like 0.5-1 layers of dusting. So I was able to bike in just fine.

We had a new runner, J, who with some friends started a company mentioned above (not Grinch!) (or Dunlap Disease, LOL). They were inspired to lose weight, get healthy, and pay it forward by charitable donations and encouraging other to do the same. Love it!

Today was our xmas run, so I brought Grinch fruit kabobs. This was funny in the end because CS called me a Grinchette for not wanting to run the golf course hills today. Haha! He's right, I'm such a downer.

On the commute in, another cyclist behind me at the top of the TGA hill was huffin and puffin, said his wife made too many cookies. And that he had Dunlap Disease, his belly "dun lapped over his belt". LOL!!

Great day, I love this stuff.

Wednesday, December 17, 2014

Run commute a broken 16

RUN 13 miles in 2:03, Club xmas eve run
RUN 3 miles in about 29 mins, commute home

Yesterday was sort of a test for running early in the morning -- did I have the gear, did I feel safe, could I see well enough at 6am? I could, so today was on the schedule. The original plan was to run to Kayaks to meet the group, run back across FoPa to work, then run home from work. In my head, I kept coming up with the number 16 as the mileage total.

I'm buzzing along on my way to Kayaks when I realize 16 is wrong, and that my mileage will be 13. I know I have bad math, but that bad? 6-7 miles to Kayaks, 3-4 back to work, then 3 home. 16?!

Even with this realization, I'm having a great run. It's warmer than it should be for xmas and I expected to be overdressed soon. I'd rather be overdressed most days, than underdressed. But I'm also running a bit late, this creates the usual stress. To handle it I cut a few corners in FoPa and arrive about 10 mins late. I met up with the group, got our group photo, then we took off. Waldo was with us, EC had a santa hat and socks, LC was running, this was something I needed! I ran half a mile with LC, then another 1.5 with EC, two people I haven't run with in quite awhile!

But then on my own after EC turned around. The rest of the group was too far ahead of me and I had no chance of catching them, couldn't even see them. So I continued towards work, thinking again about my goal mileage. If I do this then, that later, this on the weekend...(carry the 2...), realize that DH had my bag and brekkie and he won't be here until later in the morning, so was it any surprise that I kept running until I hit 13 at work!? I started dragging a little, but I was feeling much better than I did at the QP 14 miler a few days ago.

The run home was better than I expected. I thought I'd be dragging, maybe even walking. Nope! A broken long run commute is a good idea for the midweek!

Mid-week mid-afternoon run

BIKE 30 mins and 8.5 miles, indoors
RUN 31 mins and 3.5 miles, outdoors :)
COMMUTE 6 miles

The Y pool is closed for deck painting, and so I burned off some energy on the trainer this morning. Figured I'd get my "hour" of training in this way, when combined with an afternoon run. I added in some arm weights, light weight but 20 reps, to start on that track. I really need to build back some upper body strength.

The run plan was for 3 miles, but 'oops' when the timer went off for 15 mins I was at 1.75 miles. More bonus! That means I can do just the 6.6 miles tomorrow if I want, instead of rounding up to 7. Me and my even numbers and training plan OCD.

The afternoon run felt fresh, great, easy, everything a short 3 miler should feel like. Even if it goes 3.5 miles!

Tuesday, December 16, 2014

First run of the 100-miler plan, with a bonus mile!

RUN 8 miles in 1:15
RUN 3 miles in :29

The original plan was to do a 7-in and 3-home commute run, but I was feeling good and kept it rolling.

I thought for sure the 2nd run would suck, I was tired all day. But I popped right out and hit it with no problems. One thing I love about my body and being in shape like this -- I can walk out the door and GO.

Great start to the training plan. The goal this week is 40 miles. I've had some dull ache in my left hip/IT band area. Mostly when I'm sleeping on that side. So don't sleep on that side!

Monday, December 15, 2014

"All Hard" Evolve swim

SWIM 2500y in 1hr
COMMUTE 6 miles

This is probably the most I've swam in an Evolve session, we usually end around 2000. I should say "I" usually end there since I'm such a slow poke pansy about getting in the water right away.

WU then 4x25, 5x50, 5x100, 5x50, 4x25, then 500 pull "pushed", then CD. SM said the effort for the pyramid was "All Hard", so All Hard it was! FUN!!

My back was a little grumpy about the swim, but otherwise it's OK.


Sunday, December 14, 2014

2014 was the year that...

...I discovered TGP as a wonderful training track for the bike. I'm almost afraid to tell anyone else about it for fear of attracting other riders. Although it'd be fun to do the loops with friends. Much fewer training rides indoors this year!

...I realized that my standard "1 mile in 10 minutes" calculation is way off. So many times I'd think "5 miles so it'll take 50 mins", only to realize that I could run more in that time or run faster and get done sooner. My run pace is no longer in the 9:30-10 m/m range! Excepting breaks, stoplights, etc. My "1 minute per swim lap" changed by year's end too. 

...I did speed work solo on the track. In previous summers I'd have club friends or others that I met with regularly, but this year that only happened a few times when BE showed up, and he's been injured. I thought this would slow me down or deter me from returning, but not yet!

...I did a lot of solo training, in fact. Many of my late season bike rides were alone. Just me and Frea. Me and my thoughts. This was good and bad. Good in that I learned to live with my thoughts. Bad in that I think I would have had more fun and maybe found a bit more speed in the challenge of riding with others. 

...I had loads of stress in the spring that defined my life. First off was health stress, with the gall bladder then the FODMAPs. I needed to dial in my outside-of-training nutrition twice this year! But now that things are smoothed out, I'm still paranoid but feeling better than ever.

...I had a second source of stress in my job. That's changed now, but it took a long time to realize just how much that stress directly impacted my health and happiness. And fixing it forced me out of my usual comfort zones, and pushed me to do things I didn't think I could do. Thanks to my DH for helping me through this, without his support I would have stayed in that pit of worthlessness I was wallowing in. 

...I hit my goals of two iron distance tri's, and hit the goal of podium'ing in one of them! Even better, this year I PR'd my10K, 13.1, 26.2, 70.3, and 140.6! Holy cow, right? 

...I fixed my nutrition. Finally? We'll see, but I've been symptom free for weeks now, aside from a few minor bad mornings. No more afternoon and evening pain. No more every-morning-TMI. No more fear of what to eat. Now I love eating new foods, I can make smart choices, and I've expanded my range of foods to include stuff I wouldn't eat before. I'm starting to enjoy food.

...I learned I had to make major changes to my lifestyle. These changes were good for me, they've improved my life so much, but they are beyond the scope of this blog.

...I learned to Appreciate!. This is based on TV's joking about my nutrition alarm on the Garmin, and how we'd stop running briefly to eat and Appreciate! something. For me it turned into a daily goal, finding something to Appreciate! in my day from dewdrops on grass to a cloud formation, or acts of kindness and smiles in other people, or just any little thing that made a moment special. I also started to Appreciate! my health, my ability to run without pain or fly like the wind on the bike or create waves in the pool. Overall, I learned to immerse myself in the moment whenever I could. 

The Bee's 8 Rules To Happiness On The Roads Of Life

1. Believe in yourself. Or rather, bee-lieve in yourself! If there's one thing I've learned, it's that we are capable of so much more than we realize. Sometimes there's nothing more powerful than a finish line, and whether that finish line is a real finish arch with a timing mat, or any other seemingly impossible goal you've set for yourself, believe that you can do it. Have faith in your determination, your resolve, and the ability of your body to adapt and surprise you.

2. Train like a bumblebee. This is not original to me, but I'll paraphrase it here. It's said that when viewed from a physics point of view, a bumblebee shouldn't be able to fly. His large body weight shouldn't be airborne with those relatively small wings. But the bumblebee doesn't know that! And so he bumbles along, flower to flower, just doing what he's made to be doing. The bumblebee isn't listening to the naysayers, and neither should you. The naysayers could be The Others, or it could be yourself. Tune them out, keep doing what you're doing.

3. Your hive is your livelihood, take care of them and they'll take care of you. It's so easy to get wrapped up in yourself when you say I "need to run XX miles so I won't be home", or "I have a YY mile bike at ZZ pace so I can't ride with you today" How many times have we left family and friends behind to pursue our goals of fortune and glory on the road and trail? Likely too many times. Keep in mind that your family and home are the most important! Missing a morning run will not ruin your race a few weeks from now. Reschedule, re-prioritize, whatever you need to do. But don't ignore the hive.

4. Yet be open to visiting other hives and fields. Never say Never. Don't say "oh I could never do that...", instead say "I wonder if I could". Why cut yourself short like that? How do you know what you could or couldn't do if you don't try? Back in 2006 and 2007, I used to say "I could never run a marathon, I don't have the mental tenacity for it". Since then I've done 3 marathons, 5 iron distance triathlons, and 6 ultrarunning events. If I'd stayed home at the hive or stuck with the same clover field, I wouldn't have the experience, friends, and strengths that I have today.

5. Heeeeeeyyyyy....Must be the HONEY! I'm not advocating that you start collecting nectar, partially digesting it, then regurgitating it for storage waxy hexagonal cells. I'm saying that you would benefit the most from bee-ing sweet to yourself and to others. Be kind to your body, take care of yourself with good food and rest. Be kind to yourself, taking care to stay buzzitive and calm in the face of challenges. And share that kindness with those around you, -- fellow training partners, potential training partners, volunteers, family, friends, coworkers.  Be patient, be mindful, be open, with yourself and with those around you. Could we say that 'You'll catch more bees with honey'?

6. Keep Calm and Buzz On. Keep the negativity out and stay Buzzitive! Life can be hard enough with having negative emotions, stress, heavy workloads, problems you can't control, and more getting in your way. Don't perpetuate drama and get caught up in negative energies, internal or external. Visit a few flowers in the fields as needed to find some calm. Spend some time in the hive for support and comfort. See Rule #5 and bee sweet to yourself.

7. Earn your stripes. Sometimes our goals seem so out of reach or we put too much emphasis on the fact that we did or did not climb that hill. You might be tempted to cut corners or inflate your work to impress others. Maybe you failed in your goal, and now feel the need to explain why. Bee honest with yourself. It's what you know of your accomplishments that really matter, not a finisher's medal or tattoo. Did you put in the work needed, did you make an honest effort, did you do your best and challenge yourself? Then that's what matters!

8. Listen to the Whisper of Rain. Meaning, sometimes hidden in the heats and fires, if you look you'll find your desire and the music, in the height and glory of the clouds. Ulmo, the Tolkien god of water, lamented Melkor's destructive tendencies. But Ulmo didn't anticipate the snowflake and frost formed by Melkor's bitter cold, or the mists and clouds formed by Melkor's undue heats. It took Melkor's actions to create these wonderful water formations! So if you look, or perhaps listen, maybe you'll hear the Whisper of Rain. A moment of beautiful sky during a bonked bike ride. Advice from a training partner when you don't want to hear it. A lesson learned from a mistake. So while you're on that road of life, be sure to stop and land on a few flowers now and then and listen...

2014 Songlist

As per tradition!

Timber by Pitbull ft Kesha. "We about to clown. Why? 'Cause it's about to go down". Sometimes a song ends up on the playlist because I just heard it over and over and over. The song just invaded my brain. This song did, happily so, as I loved dancing to it while hanging on the wall at the pool. In fact, I danced to it wherever and whenever I could. 

That's My Kind of Night by Luke Bryan "All them other boys wanna wind you up and take you downtown; But you look like the kind that likes to take it way out". No downtown for me, take it off road, off the beaten path, and gimme some TRAIL! I didn't get to run a lot of trail this season, but I did get in a few early in the spring. 

Counting Stars by One Republic "Everything that kills me makes me feel alive". Training beats me up, but I love it and need and I'm feeling an addiction. A need for more. Healthy? 

The Middle by Jimmy Eat World "It just takes some time; Little girl you're in the middle of the ride". Lots of down moments this spring, a stress I didn't identify until much later in the year. But when I heard this song I saw me -- on my way to a goal but not there yet, seeing the finish so far ahead, and wondering how I'll get there. 

Boulevard of Broken Dreams by Green Day "Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me,
Till then I walk alone". Heard this while driving north for the Starved Rock Marathon. I was feeling alone going to this race without friends. Usually I have at least someone I know! But I was feeling down again. 

I Wanna Get Better by Bleachers "I didn't know I was broken 'til I wanted to change". I feel broken, I see problems I can't fix. But at least I see the problems, just can't get at the root of them. 

Fancy by Iggy Azalea ft Charli XCX "Got the whole world asking how I does that". Ugh, this was another song I heard over and over and over. It kinda grew on me...it's silliness and the great video saved it. This kinda became Frea's song. Sorry Frea!

Wanted Dead Or Alive by Bon Jovi "And times when you're all alone all you do is think". Heard this on the way home from my DNF swim at Comlara Park. I'd just finished a windy as all hell 80 bike ride alone, lotsa thinking done in those hours. 

Come With Me Now by Kongos "Afraid to lose control". TH and I were sharing this song on that ride from Columbia. We were on a new road (to us), talking MiTi, and this song sums up me, TH, IT, and GT readying for that race. "I need to move, I need to fight, I need to lose myself..."

Roar by Katy Perry "Stinging like a bee, I earned my stripes". This was my 2014 song overall. It started with realizing I needed to change jobs, and brought me into MiTi ready to ROAR. 

Feeling Good by Nina Simone "Breeze driftin' on by, you know how I feel". Sang this to myself during the Beach2Battleship ride, right after the SN rest stop while riding on a lovely tree-lined stretch of road, with dappling sunshine, light breeze, and nothing but beauty all around me. I needed the boost, needed to convince myself that I was feeling good, and it worked. Power of the mind. 

Try by Pink "But just because it burns; Doesn't mean you're gonna die". This is a song that kept coming back to me, as if it needed to find a place to fit in the list. First it came up in marathon training, then MiTi, then B2B. Finally found a home here at the end of the year. I got burned, I deserved it though, I did it to myself, it hurts, but I'm not gonna die. 

Shake It Off by Taylor Swift. "But I keep cruising, can't stop, won't stop moving". Another one that grew on me. Really thought about whether or not it should land here, but a few thoughts on this. The memory of the watching the mascots video with DH makes me smile. I'd sing this song to Sugar. I'd tell myself to 'shake off" negative thoughts when they build up in my head. Taylor changed her musical type, I can change too. 

Nothing Else Matters by Metallica "Open mind for a different view". The stress I kept mentioning, it all came out in the end. The changes I'm making (note present tense) have been good for me. I needed them. I'll just have to wait and see what comes of it. 

Saturday, December 13, 2014

100 yard PR! 1:41

RUN 4 miles to the pool in 36 some odd minutes
SWIM 2200 yards in 55 mins

Running before swimming is maybe a great way to warm up for a swim? Let's get to the swim.

It felt great! I was going to meet RM there, but he changed his schedule so I was on my own. I had the lane to myself for most of the swim. The workout is from ST.com:

WU 300ez; 4x50 drill; 4x50 as 25f/25e
MS 4x 3x100, each set of 3 a few seconds faster than previous
CD 3x100 as kick, pull, choice

I LIKE this workout! The first set of 100's was unexpectedly fast, clocked just under 2 minutes. My goal was right at or over 2 mins, thinking that I was only going to get so much faster by the time I got to the last set.

The 2nd and 3rd sets were easily sped up, as usual I probably put more effort in than I gained in speed, but I wasn't all-out by the time I got the 4th set. The timing was surprising me -- I was waiting 15 s to push off yet I was getting 2:03 type times for the 100's!

So for the 4th set I reset my timer so I wasn't looking at the 100+recovery time. I wanted a straight answer and not have to wonder if my mental math was making this look better than it really was.

Nope: the first 100 was 1:41!! The second was 1:43, the third was 1:42. I know I'd be a few seconds faster if I could manage a better turn. For the third I was aiming for a sub 1:40, hoping to see a 1:3? something, but it looks like that's my next goal!

Sunday "long" run

RUN 10.1 miles in 1:33, ave 9:12 m/m

Got a late start this morning, didn't run until after I'd done some cook up and ate too much rice. Thankfully rice doesn't upset my tummy.

I started off heading towards LaPark to return The Hobbit DVD at Walgreen's, and in passing through had to weave around the LP house tour crowds. So change of plans as I opted to not run around the Park, instead I headed north/east towards downtown to maybe see the Arch.

And as I'm doing that I see the No Parking signage for the Hot Choc 15K, so another change of plans as I'd rather not run through a walking post-run crowd. So north to Olive then west.

I don't run the urban areas much, and this run reminded me why. Curbs, garbage, stoplights, traffic. But it's not bad. It is what it is. I joked to myself that I could call some of the really bad sidewalks "urban trail".

Turned around just before the WU campus, then back on Pine through the SLU campus.

Gorgeous day, it was in the 50's!! So odd to have that in mid-December.

NUMERICS 7hrs and 14 mins
SWIM 2200 yards
BIKE 20 miles
RUN 35.1 miles
COMMUTE 24 miles

Friday, December 12, 2014

Another week-long summary

Tuesday RUN 4.1 miles in about 36 mins, late afternoon into FoPa
              BIKE 20 mins indoors to destress
              COMMUTE 6 miles
Wednesday RUN 7.1 miles in 1:02 to work
              RUN 3 miles home, about 28 mins
Thursday RUN 6.8 miles in 58 mins
             COMMUTE 6 miles
Friday  COMMUTE 6 miles

Busy week, so I'm playing ketch-up. But there's not much to say when you're not really "training".

My back was still sore in the early week but got better as time went by. To my surprise running and biking didn't bother it. By Friday it was pretty minimal.

Monday, December 8, 2014

Oh my aching back

SWIM -- skipped due to back pain
COMMUTE 6

So I skip the swim, but not the bike ride? Yeah. And it's not like I slept in or anything. I was awake but huddled with my heating pad. The ride didn't bother me, and maybe even helped a bit.

The spasms improved over the course of the day, but it's still sore. Not sure I'll run much over 3 miles tomorrow, I need to rest it. I see this type of tight pain as something that would cause me to compensate in form.

The goal this week is 35 miles, then next week is the "official" start of my 100 miler training plan. I'm not 100% sure I'm signing up for the race, due to personal reasons. But registration doesn't open until January 1st, and I've got nothing else to do anyway :)

Oh and I've neglected to mention that I'm now tracking my dog walks with an app. We've been doing 3-4 miles a day last week!

Sunday, December 7, 2014

30 mile week summary

Wednesday RUN 3.1 miles, 6 mile bike COMMUTE
Thursday RUN 7 miles, COMMUTE 6 miles
Friday Nutthin'!
Saturday SWIM 2500y in 1 hour
Sunday RUN 12 miles in 2.5 hrs on Chubb

Ketchup post!

My goal for the week was 30 miles running, did it! Next week 35?

Everything is feeling good, I have good energy and aside from personal stress I'm doing OK.

Well the Chubb run did leave behind some pain - my back/hip on the right side is spasmy and sore.

TV and I considered the Chubb run to be our "opening run" for the season and joked about how we will look back on today and laugh about how much his calf and my hips hurt after "only 12 miles".

NUMERICS 6hrs 48 mins
SWIM 4700y in 2 hrs
BIKE none
RUN 30.1 miles in about 5 hrs
COMMUTE 12 miles

Tuesday, December 2, 2014

Tuesday Two-A-Day: Is it a thing now?

RUN COMMUTE IN: 5 miles in 45 mins
RUN COMMUTE OUT: 3 miles in 28 mins

Another cold day, but not too cold to run! The run in felt super awesome, again I'm feeling fast and fresh. I routed through TGP then up along the MoBot looking forward to running along the new path but it was the most iced-over segment of my run. So I ended up in the street. Oh well.

In previous years I've used Tuesday's as my commute and TAD training day. Looks like I'm on track for doing that again. For ultra training, I found that a TAD is a wonderful way to learn to run tired and re-acclimate to running after sitting or standing all day. It's only 3 miles, unfortunately the first mile is always a warm-up and the last mile is always uphill on my route...but that's all part of it.

Monday, December 1, 2014

December!

SWIM 2200y in 51 mins, 4x250 as 100mod/25sprint/100mod/25sprint

Today's swim felt good and fast. Whether or not I was really "fast"...I dunno. But it felt good :)

Freezing rain this morning, made for an icy drive to the pool and prevented me from bike commuting. Bad enough to tolerate cold, but ice? Eh...I'll drive.


Sunday, November 30, 2014

Turkey Weekend Training

Thursday RUN 10 miles in 1:50
Friday SWIM 2000y in :50
Saturday RUN 6.5 miles in 60 mins
Sunday RUN 1.5 miles in 13 mins

Geez you'd think I was really training for something with those numbers...!!!

The Thursday run was a surprise, I had some mental low moments but overall the run get better over time. I felt like I keep going and going for more! Refreshing in the end, didn't hurt or wear me out. I was concerned about the slick fresh but frozen over snow, but it was minimal and melting by finish time. This was just an out-n-back into TGP.

Friday's swim was another surprise--there were 9 other Club members at the pool! The BHB was there too, she has a job! :) In the end this was therapeutic, I had a pretty bad morning. RM and I had planned to meet for this swim and in the end it was exactly what I needed. He picked 5 sets of 400's, varied drills or intervals and we flew through them. In an out of habit move, I plunked my gear at the shallow end of the pool.

Saturday I was up in Illinois, this was a run in the late morning up to the school road then over the hill and back. As usual, there was a steady wind, this one out of the south. So I froze the right side of my face on the outbound, tailwinded then headwinded, then the left side of my face received the attention. It wasn't cold, to be honest, but a strong and steady wind that doesn't let up does hurt after awhile. The surprise here? I ran with my phones music to my 2013 soundtrack. I haven't run with music since I started running in 2004 or 2005. Did I like it? I could go either way, but it kept my mind from wandering and I liked that.

Sunday was just to round up to my goal distance of 25 miles. Up to the yellow house road and back in a few minutes. Barely broke a sweat.

NUMERICS total of 6hrs and 48 mins (as usual doesn't count my bike commute time)
SWIM 3950 y in just under 2hrs
BIKE 17.5 mi indoors in 1 hour
RUN 25.1 miles in 4hrs 8 mins

Next up: look at how to schedule running this month, and think of a winter swim goal?

Wednesday, November 26, 2014

It's been a month! Now what!?

Monday SWIM 1950y with Evolve, COMMUTE 6 miles
Tuesday RUN 6.8 miles in about 70 mins, COMMUTE 6 miles
Wednesday BIKE 17.5 miles in 60 mins indoors

On Monday my B2B FINISHER jacket arrived in the mail!! IT'S AWESOME! Been wearing it all day since :)

The Monday swim was 2x 4x75 with a mix of moderate and fast 25's, then 8x50 on 60s, then 6x25 sprint. Felt great, some back spasming again in midset but nothing to stop for.

Tuesday was the 25th, so the one month mark since B2B. I have a self-imposed "month off" that I guess ends today? Or round it up to this weekend? Nah, this is a pre-season run :)  Guess I could call it the first real training run for the 100-miler?

Am I doing the 100-miler? The date was announced: June 5-6th. I have a lot to work on between now and registration, start there.

Sunday, November 23, 2014

Rest both training and logging

Monday RUN 3 mile commute home
Tuesday RUN 2.2 mile commute from Chevy, RUN 3 mile commute home
Wednesday COMMUTE 5.2 mile
Thursday RUN 6.6 miles with BillS
Friday and Saturday OFF
Sunday BIKE 20 miles in about 70 mins indoors

Not much to say, except I'm enjoying the 'off' time. Still really stressed, very up and down.

On Mon saw the Dr, he seems happy with everything, not worried about weight or diet, and is running some micronutrient tests to see about my intense salt cravings. Are they in my head? Or are they physiological? (I tend to think the former!).

NUMERICS haha!
3 hrs and 25 mins
SWIM none
BIKE 20 miles
RUN14.8 miles
COMMUTE 5.2 miles

Sunday, November 16, 2014

Another weekend off

Friday, nothing, missed my swim
Saturday BIKE 18 miles in just under an hour indoors
Sunday SWIM 2500y in just under an hour, 10x150y

For a grand total of 4.5-5hrs of training last week! I was going to run over the weekend but found excuses to not run. My back might hurt...I'm tired...I'm resting...I've too much to do otherwise...

But the best excuse won out: I don't need to! Rest!

And I'm terribly distracted. A run would help it, but it just wasn't there this weekend.

Thursday, November 13, 2014

MORE COLD!

RUN 6.6 miles in about 56 mins, 8:30m/m pace
COMMUTE no way, uh uh, too cold. 25F!

Oh dang this cold snap sux. This supposed polar vortex from a storm in Alaska is really bringing it, but I can't complain too much because they have snow up north. We were spared that.

Since I wasn't going to bike into work, I needed to be home ASAP to ride in with DH. Our run group now has 2 new members -- welcome James and awesome to EW for coming back :)
The BillS shows up! He doesn't recognize me at first, until I 'buzz' him -- LOL!

I ran with DT this morning, super happy to be able to keep up with him even though he was most certainly holding back. The wind out of the west made it somewhat miserable to run the last 1.5 miles and I would have loved to run faster to warm up faster, but I didn't have much more in me. DT says he's planning to do MiTi Full in 2015!

Once done, my back started with some spasms. I was sitting on the patio behind the FP VC not so much in pain but lots of worry and discomfort. It went away after a few mins, but hopefully it was just from running stiff in the cold, not another problem I need to deal with this winter.

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

COLD!!

COMMUTE: 6 miles

Oh DAMN it was a cold ride in today! I felt not only terribly pain in my fingertips but also almost physically SICK afterwards. My body just didn't handle it very well. I huddled at my little heater at my work desk waiting for it to pass, and it took about an hour before I felt warm. Then another hour before I felt normal.

Slept in until almost 5:30, but didn't leave to walk the dog until 8:30am. It sounds like it should be a wonderful thing, but I really hate not having something to do in the mornings. It will pass, soon enough I'll be looking for an excuse to not do anything again.

Had lunch with TV today, we strategized on our plans for a 2015 100-miler. Whoop! Even though I'm not supposed to be thinking about this stuff until November :)

Not looking forward to the ride home tonight...

Tuesday, November 11, 2014

I ran because I could!

RUN 6.3 miles in 57 mins

As per habit, I ran on Tuesday morning. I didn't need to. But I wanted to. So I did. :)

I realized only later in the morning that running 11 miles on 11-11-14 would be cool, but ah well.

Maybe at another level, I wanted a run to help with some stress I was feeling about today's appointment. I won't discuss that here, suffice it to say that it's another challenge and life is all about challenges and how we deal with them.


Monday, November 10, 2014

3 lbs and $14

SWIM 2000y in ~50 mins, rotation and kick drill sets
COMMUTE 6 miles

Some IronHumor to remember.

The other morning I awoke in the middle of the night needing to use the bathroom. I futzed with my watch to get the time -- 12:50. NUTS, I think, that's it?! Later on in the morning I realize that wasn't the chronological time, rather it was my stopwatch time for B2B! I haven't erased it yet!

At my swim on Friday I again marveled at how heavy my swim gear bag was. How could swimming weigh so much?! So I brought the bag in the house as a prompt to get it cleaned up and see why it was so heavy. Last night I got to that errand. It started out weighing 10 pounds. I found numerous swim caps (SavageMan, Swim The Sun, B2B, and Tri Club), uncounted baggies to keep my workout cards dry on the deck, and $14 in the front pocket. Those bills were from my days at Master's swims back in early 2012!

I managed to remove 3 lbs of gear and garbage from the bag, and although doing so really didn't clear up usable space it was needed! And profitable!

Today's swim was 8x50 drills then 4x50 swimming the drill. The first drill was for rotation: hold a kickboard between your thighs and rotate until you feel the 'slap' of the board against the surface of the water. (This was hard to do given my thigh gap!). The second drill was with an ankle band, still kicking so not like my other ankle band. I'm not sure I understood this drill.

After that, 4x100 on 2 mins (I managed 1:50, 1:55, 1:56, 1:57) and 8x50 consistent. I was consistently tired by that point!

Great warm day outside, 71F last I checked but a polar vortex is due to arrive and chill things off. Booo!

Does Billie Van Josef make sense?

Sunday, November 9, 2014

This resting is fun, but boring sometimes!

Saturday NOTHING
Sunday RUN 6.6 miles in 56 mins with TH

Saturday was an errands day, lots of little things I've been putting off until I had more time. Well, I have lots of time right now it seems! Trader Joe's, Target (they had clothes that fit me!?), Vitamin Shoppe, Aldi, Jay, home around 1pm.

I woke up to an aura, then at the end of the day GI upset. Not sure exactly what set my tummy off, but maybe the plantain chips or the protein powder set off a painful gas and cramp attack. Need to figure that out, ugh, very unpleasant...

Sunday was an early run with TH. I miss running with her and would have loved another hour but she and I both knew only 1 hour was my goal. I'm glad I stopped when I did. It felt refreshing, easy, fast, and FUN.

We went out for lobster tonight. Oh NOM NOM!

How was my week off? 3hours and 59 minutes!
SWIM 3600 y in about 90 mins?
BIKE None!! Haha!
RUN 16.3 miles
COMMUTE 24 miles

Friday, November 7, 2014

Weds, Thurs, Fri...

Weds COMMUTE 6 miles
Thurs RUN 6.6 miles in just over an hour
          COMMUTE 6 miles
Fri SWIM 2000y in ~45 mins, 500 y TT in 9:36
          COMMUTE 6 miles

My second week of recovery continues, and finally about mid-week I really started to perk up. My commutes started feeling easy and fast, no more tired legs. The Thursday run was a bit weak and I had a headache, but enjoyed it still.

On Thursday's commute home I came across another cyclist, the first I've encountered that takes cycling safety more seriously than I do. I seem to ride on a street with many many casual riders that blow off stop signs and act nuts. This guy had awesome lights and gear, fully stopped, took the lane when safer to do so, and pointed me to Cycling Savy -- a local safety course for cyclists. Before leaving work I put extra lights and reflectives on, thought I was all set and covered until I came up upon him!

Thursday was a full moon day. Went to bed Weds and Thurs with the moon in the east. Woke up Thurs and Friday to a beautiful moon setting in the west. :)

Friday's swim was a 500y TT effort, did it in 9:36 for a 100y ave of 1:55. Ooooof, I slowed down! Not unexpectedly though, given the long distance effort training, the race, and the recovery. Might as well set the baseline low! Then I did a 5x100 (10s) in 10:08. Once you subtract the 40 seconds of rest it calculates out to a 100 y ave time of 1:54.

SM recommended some fast 50 and 100 y efforts in my upcoming swims. LOL, anything to get faster than this!

It's cold on my commutes, cold in the lab, cold at home. Sometimes I can't seem to get warm! It's no mystery to me as to why, I'm lacking insulation. But it's so crazy that this morning the lifeguard A asked we what I changed in my diet this year. Heh, there's a long answer and a short answer...I gave him the latter.

Tuesday, November 4, 2014

Ugh...it's only been 10 days!

RUN 3.1 miles in about 30 mins, commute to work

Woke up the Whisper of Rain. And it's been raining aaaalllll day:) My run to work was in the rain. Sure it's cold and wet and gray, but I can't help but Appreciate it.

I keep thinking forward to my 2015 goals. Dammit it's only been 10 days since B2B, and I'd kinda put a moratorium on thinking like this until November was done and gone!

Monday, November 3, 2014

Getting back into the groove: setting some goals

SWIM 45 mins and 1600 yards
COMMUTE 6 miles

I'm feeling great, I think the biggest aspect of my recovery will be overcoming the burnout and mental fatigue I was feeling. Don't want that to carry over into 2015.

1600 seems short, but that's what my math came up with. I didn't start right away, stood on the deck and lolly-gagged until 6:16. Once I started I was OK though, felt like a great swim and didn't focus on much else than the workout.

Speaking of which, the goal was counting strokes. WU 300 then 4x50 counting with paddles- I averaged 12 right arm strokes/25y. Then do 4x50 without paddles and keep the number the same. Mine was, so SM said go for faster. I did a few 50's in 50 seconds in what was about an 80% effort. Then 4x50 fist, then 2x150 paddles and pull buoy, then 2x150 pull buoy with fists. For everything but this last 150, my strokes were the same number, this last set it was 16! CD 100.

I talked to SM and NK about keeping motivated this winter for the pool, and asked for some goals or benchmarks to work for by the end of the year. I was happy to have SM give me some 500TT work to do this week :)

I have ideas for next year's goals, but it's only 9 or so days after B2B and only the 3rd day of November. I was going to take November "off", so no goal setting just yet! But I'm thinking of a 100-mile trail race in June and the LC Nationals at Redman in September as the major goals. Just thinking!


Sunday, November 2, 2014

B2B Post Race and Recovery Week

Sunday through Wednesday: Sight-seeing in Wilmington and driving back to STL.
Thursday: RUN 5 miles in ?? about 45 mins
Friday: RUN 3 miles in ?? abotu 28 mins, run commute to work
Saturday and Sunday, nothing but a long walk with the family on Sunday.

I felt great after the race, no soreness! No injuries except the neck chafing. I was just having a lot of muscle fatigue and tiredness. I had energy and I was walking around OK, but I couldn't motivate for much  more than that.

The Thursday and Friday runs felt surprisingly good, the only thing I wasn't happy with was the cold. It was 70-80F in North Carolina, but only 40-50 here!

Great race and great recovery. The goal for November is to do only what I feel like doing.

Saturday, October 25, 2014

B2B: T2 and the Run: Floating like a butterfly, stinging like a bee

T2: 8:09; 12th of 27 in AG
RUN: 26.2 miles in 4:37; 5th of 27 in AG
Splits: 9:46 m/m in first 7 miles
           9:56 through first 14 miles
           10:23 through first 20.5 miles
           10:34 overall pace
FINISH TIME: 12:50:02, 12th of 27 in AG

T2 was indoors in the convention center. It was a long run in and out, but there were mats on the floor to help. I sat on the floor (knowing that leaning over in a chair would make me dizzy) and took my time. No rush, get it right! I used the indoor bathroom (first for any race I've done!) and headed out.

RUN: 2 out-n-back course on the River Walk, city streets, and on park paths around a lake. Aid stations about every mile, great volunteer support. Mostly shaded in the park, great running surface, and enough winding park paths to keep it interesting. Flat aside from 2 minor block-long hills right before mile 3.

Only 26.2 miles to go! The run started off with a kiss to DH who was just outside the convention center, then off to a short out-n-back. Back to the River Walk (should be called the River Jog or Run, LOL!) which was quite fun. The boards of the walk were soft, the turns broke up the routine, and being able to see the river and USS North Carolina battleship made the first few miles pass fast. Then a few blocks of brick and cobble stone before hitting a relatively ugly half mile with railroad tracks and street. But this section was made all the better by a wireless speaker playing my 2014 theme song. I sang out loud with Katy: "Now I'm floating like a butterfly, stinging like a bee, I've earned my stripes". Then the first of 2 hills on the course, neither much of a hill but I walked them anyway. About 3 miles in we entered the park, a wide paved path with some bridges, tree rooted cracks, and little winding turns. Beautiful! And park signs telling park visitor's to not feed the alligators. ALLIGATORS?!

I fueled with EFS every 30 mins and drank as desired from my Camelbak handheld bottle. I stuck to plan of walking every mile and briefly in each aid station to refill the handheld. Without the garmin, I had to guess on the mile intervals so I went with every 10 minutes. In the end I only walked 15-20 seconds at a time for the first 13 miles. If I didn't feel the need to walk I didn't, but I was holding back my pace so as to conserve for later. I knew that mile 4 could feel great, but my mile 24 that could all change. Heck, by mile 14 it could all change! So slow it down and bee good!

The turn-around wasn't until 7.25 miles and I started getting some "where the hell is the turn-around?" anxiety. From race report recon, I knew the second loop was shorter than the first, but I couldn't get my head around the math for this turn-around. Calm down, slow down, just run it.

I'd written "Please wish me a Happy Birthday" on my bib number and tied some ribbon to it. I got a few wishes, but not many. The bib was hanging on my back, and apparently most runners weren't looking at my ass. Ha!! But I did get a few, and each one of them buoyed my spirits. The spectators and volunteers were great too, so much energy! Near the finish line a guy wearing a race medal and Finisher pajama pants cheered me by, that's what I'm running for!

The first lap sped by, I felt fantastic aside from wanting to throw up the Clif Shot Vanilla I'd just eaten. It didn't come up, nor did a follow-up shot of EFS, but they were burning the back of my throat. I burped a few times, that seemed to help. I kept drinking and rescheduled nutrition to every 40 mins until I felt better. As I headed towards Special Needs I passed the finish line party and saw Doritos in the food tent -- I was going to get me a bag of those when I'm done. Not to eat, of course!

At Special Needs I put on the bee tutu and headband. Volunteers laughed and helped me. I decided against wearing the shrug for warmth, even though it was getting dark I was comfortable and even sweating a little bit.

"I've got the eye of the tiger, a lion, dancing through the fire and I am a champion, and you're gonna hear me roar"

Back out for lap 2 and I spent the first mile or so trying to peel the damned label off the new EFS flask. Ugh! I needed it peeled so I could monitor the volume but I couldn't get it off. Fingernails too short to tear it. Teeth couldn't get ahold of it. Arg! Hint: next time, peel it before the race. I looked for DH to see if he could help, but didn't see him. Thought about asking a volunteer but didn't to stop. Besides, it was a distraction. Those would come in handy now. I got it off about 2 miles later.

Across the tracks, up the hills, into the park. By now it was dark. Fewer people were able to see the bee costume, but knowing I had it on was enough for me. There was another runner wearing devil horns and a red tutu, we enjoyed seeing each other. But enough people saw the bee to give me some cheering and extra energy. Proof that having fun in these races can be a win-win for everyone.

My race math got bad as usual and I kept confusing the distances, thinking that the race was 25 miles instead of 26. This was a pervasive thought, and along with the unmatched first and second loop mileages I kept getting confused. But the miles came by fast, sometimes surprising me as I caught view of a sign. I was happier to walk 30-40 seconds per mile by now, not because of fatigue but because I was getting stutter-steppy and wobbly. Some areas of the path were very dark I didn't want to trip over a root in the path. Focusing on the path, looking for trip hazards, and staying on path distracted me but at the same time drained my mental energy.

I caught sight of the first quarter moon, bright and clear and silvery in the western sky. I took a few moments to Appreciate it, then kept going.

I passed lots of walkers in the last miles, and saw at least 3-4 people talking or chatting on cell phones. One guy was stopped with cramps. Another runner was being treated by EMT's. And many many more heading out for another loop. As usual in these races, I felt like the only runner still running. Most people didn't reply when I said "good job" so I quit saying it to everyone.

Two other notes -- in the bike I started a game of collecting the Clif Shots from the aid stations to see how many I ended up with by the end. Some I ate but most I didn't. LOL, I had Clif Shots stuffed everywhere it seemed, and even had to unload some into my Special Needs Run bag! Second, I needed something solid to eat and the craving was getting a bit much. My options included bananas and oranges. I tried an orange at mile 8 but it didn't work for me and I tossed it after a few licks. I moved on to Clif Blocks. I didn't train with them and when I tried a few earlier on the bike it didn't feel too good going down. So what I did was grab a half package from the aid station, squeeze one out, chewed on it a bit, then spit it out. Gross, I know. And they tasted awful. I made sure to not spit around other runners. I didn't spit all of them, but most. To my surprise it helped and satisfied that odd must-chew craving I had.

20 miles, 21 miles, 22 miles... they ticked by fast. It felt better to jog than it did to walk due to tired muscles but I still forced at least a brief walk. I had concerns about stutter-stepping on the cobblestones ahead - I'd be easy to remember as the Bee that fell before the finish line. Mile 23 had the "We've Got Salt" tent that I'd passed by before. This time I stopped to see what they had. Why not? Turns out they had a thumb-licking salt delivery tube -- cool! But not for this race. Sure only 3 miles to go but 'nothing new on race day' is the rule. Besides, licking my thumb after all it had been exposed to today...ew...

Down the hills, over the tracks, past the last aid station, to the cobblestones, everyone is cheering! OMG here it was, the day is almost over and the finish line is within site! I weaved to the side to collect as many high-fives as I could and found DH. I stopped for a kiss, OMG it was so great to see him there!! Stopping to see him was worth the few seconds over 12:50 :)

FINISH TIME 12:50:02

Run Review: Nailed it. I managed my pace, adjusted nutrition as needed, and had FUN. That was my goal!

The post race festival was upbeat but not obnoxiously loud which I appreciated. Volunteers took my chip, handed me a mylar, offered water, gave me a medal and pajama pants. I finally got to eat some oranges. Got my bag of Doritos. Tupelo Honey was being played by the band -- one of my songs!

I was feeling great, no soreness or pains aside from some worry about the neck chafing. DH had already collected Frea and the gear bags, so all that was left was Special Needs Run (and all the Clif Shots I'd put in there from the first lap, LOL). The volunteers there remembered the bee costume and kept cheering me. What a great group of volunteers, where do they get the energy?!

I did great the rest of the night, to my surprise I was able to eat. We stopped at a CVS to get some ointment for my neck, then at a Jason's Deli for some solid food, can't believe I was able to eat solid food from a salad bar. Of course I wore my bee costume and mylar inside both stores :)

I was tired but not sleepy, and I was still chattering away about everything that happened. Around midnight-thirty I lamented that my birthday was over, it went by so fast! DH pointed out that I'd been up since 4:30am, that I'd milked the day for all I could. True :) What a great birthday!!

B2B T1 and Bike: I'm feeling good

T1: 22 minutes; 27th of 27 in AG!
BIKE 112 miles in 6:38; 13th of 27 in AG

T1 was known for the long run to the TA. I skipped the wetsuit strippers so I could conserve body heat until I started running. But on the way I came to the showers -- they had hot water! I started pulling off the suit but I started shivering-- arms, core, legs. A man in an official looking uniform with a badge took me to the warming tent. NUTS! But I needed it, the towels and blankets helped. I think I spent 7-9 mins in the tent.

I left the tent on my own accord to finish the run to T1. The long run wasn't bad as I thought it could be, I took my time to avoid rough road. Saw DH on the way, he snapped some pictures and I was not smiling in any of them. Haha! I was handed my T1 bag, then off to the changing tents where I took my time to get ready. I stuck to plan: jersey with shorts, no capris, long gloves on and short gloves stowed, arm warms, head band for ears, windbreak vest. I wasn't goofing around, but I wasn't in a hurry either. Bathroom stop, then to Frea who was mostly alone at the racks as most other full distance racers were already biking. Ah well. She's probably used to it by now.

On my way out of T1 DH offered the Garmin, he had it working! I wanted it, but it might have violated the Outside Support rules. It would be nice to have the nutrition alarms reminding me to eat, but I declined it. (And found out later that the hard reset wiped the alarms out anyway).

BIKE: 112 miles in a counter-clockwise 1-loop course, point to point. Flat, great road surface as we had either an entire highway lane or shoulder bike lane to ride in, great traffic control, lots of support. The half distance racers were with us the first 30-ish miles before they turned off. No hills to speak of except for two bridges, at 1 mile and at 111 miles, each having a dangerous metal grating. I think 6 aid stations, one of them also Special Needs.

My first concern was to get focused to cross the bridge gating without crashing. The athletes ahead of me seemed to be dripping water, there was what looked like a wet streak along the right side of the lane? This was worrisome, did that mean the grating was wet too? Couldn't tell, but oh damn that grating was slick!! Huge adrenaline surge as Frea's front tire felt squirrely under me. Stay steady, don't swerve, keep it turning...soon enough it's done.

My next concern was to get warmed up. I knew the temps would only improve over time, but I still had 1-2 hours of cool temps to go. This wasn't as bad as I expected, but the first 10 miles passed by very fast with this distraction.

Next concern was all the half distance male athletes who were powering by me. And drafting. Lots of drafting, so much so that when one of the packs came by me I could feel the pull! They also passed awful close to me, more concerned with their race than with the space between us. I stayed out of the fray and their way. I wasn't racing, they were. Let 'em have the road.

Somewhere around 20 miles was a landfill. Ew the stink! Around mile 25 I passed a cotton field, the first I'd ever ridden by and I wanted to badly to stop and pluck some. Signs indicating that the next aid station was one mile ahead would appear, and I would get fixated on that. This worked against me, I started getting "endvy" and looking forward to the stop too much. There were course signs marking every 10 miles but without the Garmin I was unable to track in mileage in between. To be looking forward to a stop so early around 35-40 miles wasn't a good sign.

The aid station reminded me of a Trailnet ride -- 30+ bikes on the grass or leaned somewhere, riders milling about and chatting, only a few sped though in minimal time. There was a long port-a-potty line and I hopped into it. This was the most relaxed race aid station I've seen,. Other riders commented on Frea's decorations (yellow, black, and silver ribbons) and I said "It's for my birthday!" This spread quickly through the station and happily met lots of racers with that ribbon. About 10 mins at this stop, then onward to the Special Needs, only 14 or so miles away.

Somewhere in this stretch a terrier-chihuahua-ish small dog got loose from a nearby house. The leash was flapping behind it, it was barking and actually keeping up with us. And this dog held on to us for at least 0.25 to 0.5 miles. Damn that dog had some speed and endurance!

I was purposefully avoiding race math to calculate my speed, not that my race math is accurate, but I felt like I was passing large numbers of riders. Many I was seeing multiple times, which meant they were passing me at aid stations, but it still felt like I was speeding by other riders (and by seeing many of the same riders over and over I got multiple Happy Birthdays!). I hit 50 miles at exactly 3hrs, so with a 10 min stop that worked out to just over 17 mph. Of course I didn't know this number in the race, but I knew from training rides that 3 hrs for 50 miles was a easily maintainable pace for me.

But the other reason the pace was nagging at me was that by mile 50 my mental status started to slump. It might have been the "endvy" and looking forward to aid stations, or it could have been fighting what I thought was to be the worst of the headwind (all 4-6 mph of it), or it could have been sugar levels, even though I was right on target with my eat every 30 mins plan. Through the Special Needs stop and through mile 70 I was in a bit of a slump. So much so that when I passed the mile 60 sign I was disappointed because I thought I'd already passed by 60! I started averting my eyes when a  sign was coming up so I couldn't fixate on the numbers.

To get myself out of the slump, I ate some more and made a point to quit staring at the road and instead look around. The roads were tree-lined, much of this part of the course was shaded and it was a beautiful course! I started singing songs, no one was really around to hear me so why not. A perfect song for the moment was Nina Simone's Feeling Good: "Birds flying high, you know how I feel. Sun in the sky, you know how I feel. Breeze drifting on by, you know how I feel...".  Slump or not, I'm feeling good. Can't believe how good, actually.

Miles 70, 80, 90...they seemed to crawl by but I was feeling better now. We expected a tailwind in this direction, I don't know that I felt one but just thinking I had one helped. Somewhere around mile 80 someone painted BELIEVE on the road. Later on, at least twice more, it was SIMPLY BELIEVE. How did they know that those are just the words I needed to hear? Later on, someone painted "Highest Point" with a number...did they mean that was the highest elevation point for the race? LOL it was on a flat road!

Mile 100 came at exactly 6 hours, I was nailing the pace. I was passing fewer riders but the ones I did pass weren't looking too good. One guy in a Boulder kit was riding down the middle of the road. I'd either have to pass on the right or cross the center line. I called on On Your Left with no response. Called again, nothing. Yelled it, and seemed so scare him! Hope he made it back OK, he wasn't looking terribly strong.

Next concern was the second bridge crossing at 111. Earlier I'd decided that I wasn't going to think about it until mile 110, and well that's coming right up. Should I dismount and walk? That was the plan after the first crossing, no need to fall and ruin what was shaping up to be a great race. But once at the bridge I didn't stop. A rider ahead of me started to veer into my path, I calmly called up to him. He complained about the grating, expressed concern, and I calmly reminded him that we're almost there, stay steady, nothing to jumpy.  Just what I needed to hear :)

Before I knew it, the bike is done. Rolled to the Dismount line, handed Frea over to a volunteer after thanking her for a great ride, and headed for T2.

Review of bike: Perfect! No pains, discomforts, sore feet. I did a lot of trainer rides for this race due to the dark mornings and in the end this was wonderful prep for a flat race like this. I probably stayed in the same two gears for 90% of this ride, and only tried the big ring on some of the 'downhill' sections. Stayed hydrated and fueled, I had even EFS left over that I took into the run. I managed my mental slump, kept a casual pace with longer than usual stops. I estimate I was stopped for 20-some minutes. But the stops were what allowed me to keep the pace going so I don't regret them. I felt amazing for the upcoming run, whoop!

B2B Pre Race and Swim: This world is mine for the taking

SWIM 2.4 miles in 64 minutes; 23rd out of 27 in AG, 13th of 27 in AG

Yeah, you read that right. 64 minutes! It's quite the story, but let's go back to the beginning first.

PRE RACE: Woke up at 4:30am for my usual one hour of prep: put on my timing chip, drink water, get coffee, then start brekkie. I feel great, awake, clear, and have no nerves whatsoever. I'm surprised I'm so calm. 

The air temps were low 50's so chilly but tolerable. Still no nerves until I make a few realizations. First off, I don't have a disposable pair of shoes to wear to the trolleys for the swim start. No biggie, I can wear my favorite slides and buy more, but I'd rather not have cold feet. Second, my Garmin is LOCKED in the start screen. On. Off. Reset.Multiple button pushes. Try this. Try that. NUTS! I'd thought about doing this race without the Garmin, here' my chance. I leave it in the truck. Minor stomach tumbles over this, but DH reassures me that I'm fine. Then I decide I should wear my headlamp to avoid stepping in a hole, but where did I put it!? DH reminds me, I find it, I'm happy :)

Only the full distance folks need to be at the site early, so it's a quiet and calm scene at TA/body marking. My next anxiety was Frea's front tire, still full, yay! With the set up and gear drop yesterday, all I had to do this morning was drop water bottles and EFS flasks on the bike. It felt really strange to have so little to do. But I wasn't done -- the announcer was repeatedly stressing the need to get on the trolleys now-now-now. I had to put on my wetsuit and get marked yet, and I had less than 30 mins to the last trolley. It seemed a lot of time, but the announcer was persistent.

I find some grass to pull on the suit, and while doing so a woman sherpa'ing a guy near us offers me a pair of flip-flops to wear to the trolley! How did she know?! "OMG Thank you, how did you know it was my birthday?!" I ask. She didn't, of course. Wow!

At body marking a young woman asked my number and age. Usually I have to stop and think...but not today! Today is the first day my current age = my age on Dec 31st! "OMG It's my birthday! I'm 39 this morning!" She smiles, and I keep chattering, and she keeps smiling. I was getting giddy. 

The announcer was getting even more persistent about getting on the trolley's, so a huge hug to DH and I board an open air trolley. I start talking to two women, both doing their first iron distance today. This would be a common theme for this race, so many first timers. The trolley took us past the beach houses with balconies and palm trees, it's still dark, cold, and windy in the trolley, an exotic ride to start the day. In a short turn a tree branch came into the trolley, some laughs about that, then we unload for a short walk to the beach. I stop near a lighted driveway to finish pulling on the wetsuit. A mistake once I realize that I still have one hour until the race start and will need to use a bathroom. But it keeps me warm in the meantime. 

The scene during the wait was also quiet. Small groups of athletes sitting on the curbs and lined up at the port-a-potties. I nibbled my Powerbar, sipped water, used the bathroom, then sat with a small group. I pulled my hoodie close, huddling to keep warm but not wanting to stiffen up. After 20 mins or so, another woman near me asks if I'm from St Louis.  I'm wearing nothing to indicate that...how..."Yes I am". She asks if I'm the bee from Michigan. Holy cow it's the couple we met at the Coldstone after Michigan Titanium! I've been sitting here chatting with them for 20 mins, what a small and wonderful world this is! 

Soon enough, it's time to walk to the beach and I'm very thankful for the gifted shoes - the sand is cold. It's a short but pretty walk past dunes, with the sun slowly rising, and the promise of a great day. I was eager to test the water temps, so my first goal at the beach was to get my toes wet (and let's be honest...I needed to pee again). Oh, it was warm as promised. I wander in knee deep, an athlete near me talks about getting sick after swallowing too much salt water, I get nervous about that. Another athlete reminds me to take off my hoodie before going further, I laugh, but I hang onto the hoodie as long as possible for warmth. 

THE SWIM. 2.4 mile point-to-point in a salt water channel, beach start, mostly a straight swim up the channel with an S-curve pattern of turns near the end. Incoming time, low-to-mid 70's temp. Suggestions from other racers were to sight a white water tower in the long straightaway, then a white apartment complex for the turns, then a red balloon wavey-thingy you often see at mattress sales (those tube shaped things that weave and move as air is pumped through them?). Climb out via ladders at a boat dock.

I knew the swim was about to start when Eminem's Lose Yourself came over the speakers. I seeded myself towards the middle-back of the herd so I could have a minimal-contact and calm start. I didn't do any warm up at all, I would have liked to but I knew that getting wet then standing on the beach a few minutes would chill me. "The soul's escaping, through this hole that is gaping; This world is mine for the taking" The crowd starts working through the Start arch, the gun goes off, I start my watch...I start singing along with the song..."So the soap opera is told and unfolds; I suppose it's old partner but the beat goes on; Da da dum da dum da da". 

As feared, I'm surprised by salinity of the water and concerned about swallowing too much. I know I'm not supposed to drink it, but it's a habit I have. I keep my lips loose so I get water in my mouth. Not a good idea for today. After a few breaths I realize it's not just in my mouth, it's in the back of my throat, meaning it was about to be ingested. I devise a plan to close my mouth tight and spit the water back out instead of keeping a neutral and loose mouth. But this throws off my breathing. So I time it to spit when I sight. Still throws off my breathing. I'm calm, but distracted by this. 

Another distraction was sighting. That feeling of being alone and off course is a huge mental problem in my swims, and it takes energy to suppress the fear. The guide buoys are hard to see in the dark. The field of swimmers was thin around me. I stop a few times to look for the water tower and see it, but when I do waves hit my face. Cough, spit, cough, swim The sun is starting to rise to my right, the side I breath on. Another distraction. But I stay calm, take my time, and manage the rise of panic.  I settle on keeping between the line of race support boats on my left and the shore on my right. It's a wide path to swim, and I have no really good idea of where I am until we hit the first turn. 

At one point the water gets choppy. Then we start hitting pockets of icy water. Distraction. But I'm encouraged by the fact that when I do find a buoy and doggie paddle a few seconds to sight the next one, the buoy speeds by me. I can feel the current pushing me, this was going to be fast! A good thing too, because I was getting COLD. Every time I hit an icy pocket, the cold water flooded the suit cooling my core. I worried about leg cramps. Distraction. Salt water is in my nose. Blow it out, lose the rhythm of breathing. Distraction. FOCUS and FINISH THIS!

Soon enough I see the red balloon-thingy waving in the distance -- the finish! The current is really pushing now the finish arch comes up fast. Volunteers call me to the ladders and as expected I struggle a few moments to climb up. But once up, I check my watch. It said 1:02. HOLY SH!T.

Review of swim: I don't think I could have tolerated much more time in this swim, I was getting cold fast and felt my core and leg muscles getting twitchy. To my surprise, I barely kicked. This might have been a combination of the suit and salinity that kept me so buoyant I didn't feel the need? I did great here for me: managed the fear of the OWS, the difficulties sighting in the dark, and the feeling of being too alone or too close to other swimmers. To be honest, my goal is usually to survive the swim so I get to ride my bike! And happily I was not passed by a Doritos bag :)



B2B Pre Race Logistics and Strategy

This was a somewhat challenging race to plan from out of town, but the website and athlete guides were helpful and accurate. Each segment was a point-to-point so we had two transition area. Like most all full distance races I know of we had 5 gear bags to pack and distribute. Here's an overview of the to-do's, planning, and preparation.

FRIDAY: First stop was the convention center to check in at the expo for swag, athlete wristband, gear bags, timing chip, and of course visit the expo. Swag was a trucker hat and long sleeve T-shirt, both very cool. Picked out a sweet Finisher's jacket. Back to the hotel to pack the gear bags, then back to the convention center to drop the T2 and Special Needs Bags. One bag goes on a truck to be taken out to the bike course, the other hangs on racks in the convention center. Then off to the T1 area to drop Frea and the T1 bag. That's it!

SATURDAY: People staying at the host hotel near the convention center could take a shuttle to T1, but we didn't stay there. DH drove me to T1, and once I added fuel and water to the bike I hopped a trolley to ride out to the swim start about an hour before the race start. If needed, I could have accessed my T1 bag.

POINT-TO-POINT-TO-POINT: The swim starts at a beach at the end of a waterway and ends at city of Wilmington Beach, we run a few blocks to T1, then ride the course. The bike ends at the convention center, and the two-lap run ends a few blocks south of the visitor's center.

LODGING: We picked a suite hotel for the space and mini kitchen, the hotel was located between the convention center (to the west) and the race start (to the east). I had some concern that we'd be driving back and forth and back and forth, but it wasn't bad at all.

WEATHER: We had perfect weather, but I heard that 2011 and 2013 were cold. 2011 had sleet on the bike, and 2013 had 36F air temps at the race start. So while the water trends warm according to websites detailing average temps, it seems the weather can go either way. Something to consider before signing up to do this.

I packed lots of extra clothes because of the weather. Long and short sleeves, long and short finger bike gloves, toe covers, bike jacket with zip off sleeves, swimsuit so I can have dry clothes on the bike, a sleeves-only 'shrug' I bought purposefully for the last half of the run.

ACCESS and PARKING: Because the 500-600 full athletes take off an hour before the 2000-some half athletes, parking on race morning was easy. And since the Finish Line is downtown near a convention center, there's plenty of parking and easy access there with the parking ramps.

GEAR MANAGEMENT: T1 bags with the swim gear are brought back to the convention center, where the bikes and T2 bags are. We're told by the race that while our Special Needs bags will be available for retrieval, it would be easier to not have to do it. The bike and run SN bags were in the pack of Penske rental trucks, took only a few minutes to get them. DH had my ticket to get the gear bags and bike, while I was running he took them to the car. After the race I got my SN run bag (my SN bike bag was empty).

RACE GOALS: Have fun!! Really! This wasn't an "A" race for me (it was a "Bee" race, LOL).
SWIM: In the pre-race athletes video, the Race Director promised that even a Doritos bag could finish the swim under the time cut-off, so my goal was to not get passed by a Doritos bag. I was concerned about the salt water, this would be my first salt water race swim. I was also wondering about the tide, in some race reports the tide was 'slack', but what if it turned against us?

BIKE: Known for having headwinds, but described as pancake flat. Some race reports say it has false-flats. Flats are boring, but I trained for them. So the goal was to stay steady and interested without being bored. My last training ride was a gear test for cold, windy conditions and this was very helpful, I knew exactly what to layer and wear.

RUN: The race maps showed a park and a lake, but it was hard to discern much else about the city streets. My goal was to keep a steady pace and stay strong, and bring the bee at Special Needs.

OVERALL RACE: A Must Do race. Highly recommended for great race support, professional set up and execution, very pretty course, loads of energetic volunteers, great swag, a huge heavy medal, and Finisher pajama pants!!

Friday, October 24, 2014

B2B Day Before The Race

Weds nothing! All driving, some monster issues though
Thurs RUN 4 miles about 38 mins
Fri BIKE about 2-4 miles? Lol, not sure a shake down counts

So here I sit on the eve of the race, I'm antsy, hungry and not hungry, thirsty and not thirsty, unable to sit still but wanting to nap.  My legs feel swollen. I don't feel particularly energetic. But my head is clear, the taper worked, and I'm ready to rock!

The past few days have been good, if a little unregulated and unplanned. That always throws me off but I'm doing good with it. I miss my normal foods! Of all the silly things! But I'm being good with foods, happy that I've reintroduced dairy.

Ok I'm wandering here.

The weather looks to be perfect. The water warm and smooth. The sun high all day and winds low. I've got the best forecast for a birthday race!

I've been targeting this day as a day marking a change for me.  No more monsters. No more letting the Blerch in. No more regrets, wish-I-woulda, or letting life go by the way I am now. I hate to admit the problems I see in me. Can't even type them here in a safe zone.

I tend to notice patterns and omens. I can't even guess how many "break bad habits" articles I've seen in the past week. On Wednesdays run I passed a church with a sign: John 3:3 You Must Be Reborn. (Upon further reading it was really John 3:7 but who am I to argu with a church?!". This is the multipleth "reborn" mentions ive seen recently. What does it all mean? (Aside from the fact im hyper vigilant because I'm thinking along those lines...).

One of my new obsessions since MiTi has been watching that transformation show on the trainer. Participants are given one year to make changes with a personal coach. I was jealous! To have an opportunity to have a coach lead and push you through changes, but this was a health and weight loss show, I certainly don't need to be jealous of that, lol! But still, I yearned for what they had a chance to do.

Well I do have that chance! I can designate at year of focus and growth. I could set 90 day goals, chase after what I'm looking for, and work towards what I'm yearning for.

The race start is 7:30am, and I'm told I was born around 7am. Since this is the east coast, it's safe to guess that I'll be swimming 39 years after that event..I'll be climbing out of the water like from a baptism. The rest of the day will be a trial of personal strength and fortitude, ending at a finish line I've thought about for the past year now.

Keeping it focused, my first 90 days are focused on slaying the monster, and getting my train on the right track. I'll start another Whole30, live more of the Whole9, work on habit breaking and reaching the goals I have in mind. This isn't the forum for detailing that, but it will appear here over time maybe.

It's a birthday gift to me, ahead of my 40th birthday. One year to finally take head on problems that have plagued me since .... Since way too long.

B2B Pre Race Preparation

Wednesday did nothing but sit in car.

Thursday about the same but I did get in a morning RUN of 4 miles in just under 40 mins
Saw a church sign at the Holy Ghost Tabernacle quoting John 3:3 "you must be reborn". I found out later it was really John 3:7, but who am I correct the Holy Ghost Tabernacle. What is a tabernacle, anyway?

Friday was expo and gear drop day. First a trip to to the check-in to get the gear  backs and order my Finisher's coat (it's OK to order early if it won't arrive for weeks after the race?). Then back to the hotel to pack the bags and make final gear decisions. Not much stress here, just followed my checklist and took my time.

Really the biggest decisions I had to make regarded nutrition (which EFS flask where) and what layers for clothing.

Back to the expo to drop the T2 and SN bags (and buy Finisher stickers that I soon lost, guess you can't buy those ahead of actually finishing the race!). Then to T1 to drop the T1 bag and Frea.

Everything was pretty slick, no problems, easy to do, organized, and calm. I wasn't nervous, no major mistakes or upsets, only a lot of mental thinking on "what-if's" and the like. All normal :)

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

Feeling better today

BIKE 1hr and 16.6 miles, indoors
RUN 28 mins and 3 miles, outdoors

Decided to get the bike done early so I could get to work at a decent time, but that's just never how it goes in the end. When I got done with the ride it was still dark, so I couldn't run right away. I worked on my poached eggs, cooked some carrots, and waited for the sun. Once up, I took note of the temp -- high 40's -- and cross-checked that to Wilmington: low 55's. This will give me an idea of what to expect race morning. Except when I'm running I'm warmer than I am standing at a beach or riding a bike!

The run felt great to my surprise. Not terribly high on motivation but it didn't suck either like Saturday's brick. I'm so mental!

My momentum was great until I left the house and realize I didn't have the parking pass, didn't have the alarm fob, and got locked out of the alarm app somehow. DH had the pass at the vet office, so boogied on down to get that. And as I drove in my motivation started to slide. Once at work, I ended up reading for about 20 mins and motivations slipped MORE! I forced myself to get going and do the neuron harvest (coworker out of lab for morning), forced myself to stay busy. And it worked!! I do feel better, clearer, and happy.

Do I need to point out AGAIN to myself that these things aren't that hard -- 3 mile run, getting off my ass to get stuff done, etc -- it's just that I think about it too much. More thinking = More opportunity for the Blerch!

As a side note, today's Riddle answer was HABIT! Funny that I'm reading a book right now on how we form and can change habits!

Monday, October 20, 2014

Evole swim: Mentally DONE with this

SWIM 35 mins and 1500 yards
COMMUTE 7 miles

SM said to do 500 swim, 500 pull, alternating. I did 500 swim and 1000 pull. Then I was done. Cold and done.

Very low energy today, eat more carbs this week to see if it helps!

On the bike in to work I saw a car nearly hit a pedestrian, I think the driver was going to blow off the stop sign?! Bit of adrenaline rush there, and that's about as awake as I got all day long.

Stopped by the nearby library to get some books, was going to go to BS to get my nutrition special order but I didn't have the motivation. I just want to rest! I'll do it tomorrow.

Was making stupid mistakes, not really enjoying the ride. I mentally pushed it, forced a smile, enjoyed the little moments, and it got better.

Tried making my 'food buckets' for the race. Got pre- and post- done but screwed up a 3rd and threw it out. I ate some of it as I went, the carbs did help me wake up but ...eh... my stomach wasn't as happy.

Only a few more days of this...I'm excited, but it's hard to show it.