Saturday, August 10, 2024

700 days, 1900 days, but still Moria

Supposed to RUN today, maybe a trail!

But for now, he's sleeping and and I'm AGAIN mulling why I'm stuck here. 

700 for Monster
1900 for Balrog
1 for Azog, the Great Ocr of Moria

Azog is a lingering orc, a time warp of sorts. Pulls you in and doesn't let go. Minutes, hours can pass. Walking through Moria, by Moria. Thinking about Moria, hiding from Moria. 

This too will end. Today. 

Monday, August 5, 2024

August 4th, New Moon again, only some change

RUN 3 miles with LA
PLUS 30 mins of strength and Pilates 

Some changes are positive.  No more fake B or fake M. Stopped chips. Back to meal prep and mostly on goal to have all 3 pre packed. Pimsleur and duolingo are done. I have a 3 miles/run habit almost 4 times a week. Still 132. New job! 3rd week of Apple Fitness is done, 3 more weeks until current plan ends. I can feel the strength and flexibility improving. That feels great.  Habit Rabbit is the new app. 

Some changes are negative. Today PB.  Recently raw oats. Still standing. Still spending a lot of time in and around Moria and it’s just ME I realize. All 4 of the rest of them are not. Really need to fix that. 

Some changes to make. Added a 30 min limit to meals, get out of Moria. Added prepack goal, I’m mostly on it. Stop raw oats. Stop PB before it’s a twice thing. 
Add in running to build up to a 10k plan starting Sep 14. 

Kids went back to MO yesterday on the New Moon.  This was yet another Reset Day. 

Then today I work from home and it’s yet another conveyor day.  Not sick, but not H AT ALL. Start again..

When I come back for the new new moon it will be …Sep 2nd. Goal under 130. 

Oh and 80 days until bday goal of under 125.  18 days until the MiTi 10th anniversary. I really want to be past all the shit by then! 
205 days No S, No F.  29.26 weeks!
698 days no M! 99.72 weeks!
1709 days since move in. 
1895 days since I Killed a Balrog.