The year is half over

July 1st already. I can't believe it. This year is flying by and I feel like I'm missing out on it even though so much has happened! I've had a good race season so far, but not a great training season. I'm not where I want to be but that's not the end of the world really. It's a bit distressing, yes. OK so maybe comparing it to the end of the world isn't fair. Maybe it bit extreme.

Not every season can be perfect. It will only be the best it can be, given the circumstances unique to that season. And just because it's not everything I want it to be right now doesn't mean it can't still improve!

What can I focus on the next few months?

1. Get more sleep. If I'm going to get up at 4-4:30am, I need to be IN BED by 8:30-9pm. That makes for 7.5hrs of sleep. This past few weeks have been short on sleep. It's so fixable.

2. Start to take swimming seriously. After the CE race, I lost momentum on swimming. I lost the urge to work on it. But I have a swim lesson with CHG scheduled already, more on that later.

3. Get running again. I lost momentum here too after the DC race. I had worn out on running after all that run training. There was some disappointment in that after all that training I wasn't any faster. Well duh. I wasn't surprised, just let down. Start running again, get specific!

4. Re-define some goals after CE. Don't get so let down over one bad day that didn't go my way. Start accepting things for what they are and work on what I can.

5. Start taking care of myself better. I shouldn't have to be worrying about low iron levels, dehydration, or anything along those lines. Start tracking nutrition and find ways to improve.

Some of these goals are already underway. Working with CP and CHG have already started. I started tracking nutrition today and ID'd some areas I can fix. Sleep is hard to come by, but that's do-able.

I keep thinking that life is "on hold" for something. That once that something is done and over, I'll get back to real life. Sometimes I get paralyzed by this overwhelming sense of "too much to do". I look at my calendar and see every weekend coming up full of something that will fill the time. I wonder, how will I get my training in? Will I get enough work done? When will I be able to go home and see family? This can be overwhelming.

This past week I worked off a to-do list, happily checking things off. And that's how I'm going to work through this. One step at a time. Doing what I can, as I can. Prioritizing and enjoying the time as it passes.

Do what I can. As I can and when I can. No one expects more of me than I do, so I'm going to start looking out for myself. I'm going to focus on me, my little world, and what I want to do with it.