Weds RUN 4.2 (39 mins) and no commute
I'm still in solo week. All me and my choices, kinda nice but lonely. I had another bad dinner last night (so much CO) that today has to be a clean-up day.
My run felt fast and light and clear (even though only 9:30 m/m ish) and although I didn't do the 5-7 miles of hills the plan indicated I'm still happy. This was a back-to-back running, and no notice of it or issues. I feel like this pace better suits me, I have better running form and less niggles afterwards.
Still yet this week - a 4 miler and the long run 8 miler.
I'm focused right now on anxiety reduction, decision making, and future thinking. I'm trying to frame today as what FutureBee or TomorrowTracy would like to have happened. Another way to think it through is "how would FutureBee do this" but I'm not there yet. I realized this morning that my "5 Goals for Today" on my schedule is actually my way of thinking into the future. I plan out what I'd like to have happen for me in a day. So I kinda started already.
Future Me would like to not hurry--rush breakfast like I did today. I was hungry and hurried and stressed to get to meeting and I couldn't talk to the kids as they wanted. So I took some PB, then some yogurt (was supposed to be for the dog!) and them my lunch (because of CO I couldn't eat it today). I manged on PB then yogurt then tore apart the lunch some to dog some to me some to garbage. Ugh. THen I'm too full. Then I wonder, what about lunch?! I bring oatmeal, measured, and leave it in the truck. That way I really have to be hungry, not bored!
Future Me would rather these things are planned and packed in advance. At the least, an index card of options to rush through. Because if NowBee could have spoken up 2 hours ago, it would have said "ooh just wait that's gonna sit bad with all the stress". Ask me how I know.
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