Friday RUN 5 miles, "pushed", 48:59 and COMMUTE 7 miles
Saturday RUN 8 miles DTE with LA, 1:41
Sunday RUN 6 miles DTE with LA, 1:17
26.4 miles running this week!
In my mental works, I was prompted to identify a few things: Core Beliefs and Values. After a few days of thinking I don't have either I found a few. This weekend, one of the Core Beliefs was challenged.
LA and I ran the DTE 8 mile loop Saturday and it felt great. Then that night he's asking to run again Sunday, and immediately my mind says "I can't do that, I'll get injured". Some turmoil over this in my head.
I didn't run 2019 H100 because I was injured (hip), 2021 because of the ankle surgery, and 2022 still because of ankle surgery and just lack of oomph for it. So in my mind, the past 3 years I've been hurt or injured or something. And lately I'm doing great - I don't want to spoil it by doing too much too fast.
So a Core Belief was found: I'm weak/injured/broken, and therefore I can't run more.
At first we were going to bike instead on Sunday. But I didn't want to bike. I did want to run, even though I was afraid to. Happily I decided to run, just not another 8 miles as he suggested. And it was great! No pains, no injuries. Thankfully, no falls!
I had moments of what felt like speed, what felt like it did years ago when I ran trails. Moments of ease, flight, and freedom.
H100 came and went. Now that it's no longer on my calendar, it's like a weight has been lifted. I no longer have to wonder "will I or won't I run the race?". I've been thinking about it for 3 years!
I'm addressing anxieties, thoughts, judgements. I'm trying to be open with this to LA. Most of it, anyway. Some if it (Balrog, for example) needs to stay buried.
EW had a baby, I found out Sunday afternoon!!
I texted TH, she didn't run MO Cowbell as planned due to sinus infection. She's going to switch to trail running now that summer is over. I miss this of St Louis.
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