Done with Ruben

RUN 3 miles with LA
COMMUTE 3.5 miles? (assuming I get a ride home)

Another low mood morning, the conversation in the car after phone call yesterday has me distressed. Not to be recounted here, but it's been clanging around in my head overnight. Hard to sleep and think. So I wake up short on sleep (late meal, stress, late to bed) and I'm in an off mood. I just need to escape, it feels like. Escape from the pressures I keep getting. But there is no escape.

LA wanted to run so we did, 1.5 out-n-back. I didn't say much. It was an otherwise great morning, but soured by the 7am appt with Ruben. No LA, he had to leave, and I felt like the entire conversation was just dancing around what needed to be said. But it's not fair to talk about him when he's not there. Ruben asks questions, I'm not into answering and I'm not answering fully, and like I've felt before with him - it's a bit of waste of time. I'm not enjoying it - hearing about how I could be doing different and better. So it was a RELIEF to have him start to cut the cord at the end, and end the call early. He says "I have the tools to improve things, but call or email if you need anything else". 

YES. Done. No more of that. Enough going on in my head, I don't need someone else poking around in there. 

So I'm done - but I'll go back as a couple.