Labor Day Weekend

Monday RUN 5 miles on I&M path with LA

Over the last seven days, 12.7 miles for me. I didn't run last night with LA. We'd just arrived to my parents and I wasn't ready to leave for a run. I visited, K&J were there too.

I really wanted to launch September better last week, but I didn't make it to the gym as I wanted and I didn't fast as I wanted. Fasting is something that worked and didn't work. I need to find a hybrid plan?

For $97 I can join a podcasts 7 day fasting challenge. But I read the daily learns and I'm not sure what I'd learn. And I paid $1500 in January to get help and, well, you can get all the helps out the ere but you need to ACT on the helps in order for it to work.

And after last weekend travel, this weekend travel, and now next weekend travel, I don't have an extra $97 laying around.

The OMAD felt the best on my gut, but hard on my energy and I tended to overeat at meal. I'd go to bed SO FULL and unhappy.

Really what I need to try now, since OMAD was too much, is 18:6 as 12pm and 6pm and limit to 30 mins. The reason OMAD failed includes the fact that I was eating for 2-4 hours. Ugh, full.

Last night trying to fall asleep I had a thought- that tomorrow (Tuesday after Labor Day) was the 6th, and the 6th was the day in 2018 that it all changed. And I thought WOW I can do it NOW and redo it and it's another chance for me, 6 years - no it's 3 - no fuck it's 4 years already. Four years. Lost? Lived?

I thought, 6th to the 6th, symmetry. But then I woke up and check. Nope. 2018 was the 4th, not the 6th. And I started to give up on the idea. DA FUQ?! Because the number is different ?!?!???

I can still set out to change. But change what. I'm always making changes.

1463 days. 209 weeks. 4 years and 2 days. That's when my perspective on live and my identity and my life overall changed.

I let it fall apart. It didn't have to, but I let it.

What would I do differently if I could do it again?

No M
No azuc
No Balrog
No punishments

Think on this. What can change?