I picked myself up and few away

RUN 10.2 miles in about 1:36

I wore my garmin, but don't have a time? haha.

My back was not 100% today, more like 80-85%. It's not painful, just uncomfortable. Back to that kinked feeling. It had the same discomfort at the start of Wednesday's run, but unlike that day the tight feeling didn't shake off after a few miles. It was there for all the run, and for the rest of the day.

I still wasn't feeling rested, so this was a tough run. I'm mentally drained too, feeling fragile and broken. Every time I feel my back, it reminds me of everything going on with my life and health. So a constant reminder.

I talked a lot with TV, and sincerely thanked him for it afterwards. After the run we went into the hockey/rec center for some water and came across a school art fair. I found a 3D piece I fell in love with: an open book with the pages cut and shaped into a nest or tree or burst of flames, and at the top a black paper origami bird. The piece was titled "I picked myself up and few away".

It touched me so much I teared up.  That's going to be me, I'm going to pick myself up and fly away from my troubles and pains. It's up to me to do this, and maybe this is a better tattoo idea than the one I told TV about today -- the Oregon state motto!

Oh, and can I get that in Latin? TV said he sold his ring at a Cash For Gold shop. I'll get an estimate on the tattoo then ask for that amount for my rings -- LOL!

Today is the last day of Phase II. I have grand plans for Phase III. But first a review of what I've accomplished. Phase II began January 25th, so for the entire Phase I've been on my own. Getting stronger and smarter everyday. But those days weren't without bumps. My goals lately have been smoothing those bumps out.

I no longer eat in front of a screen, for awhile eating alone was so tough I ate not only with a TV but also the internet. Now I'm in the kitchen or DR.

I schedule my mornings so that I get to work by 9am. Then I do work for 1 hour before doing personal work. Also part of the schedule is a glass of water and a few minutes with the doggie. She's learned to expect this, and that makes me smile :)

I limit myself to one round of spider at a time, no going back to replay.

I schedule my evenings so that I don't linger at the countertop in a hungry munch fest. I bring a mini meal for the late afternoon and have less than 10 minutes to get out the door with the dog. This goal is my first Intentions Goal, the Cue-Routine-Reward design that's actually worked for me. It's kept me from feeling sick prior to a real dinner, as eating like that just upset my stomach. Swallowed air? This goal is on 21 days today!! Not consecutive days, yet.

I now also have an evening routine of planning my evening as I finish the dog walk, making plans to keep from losing time staring at a screen instead of doing anything else. I get mindless, staring at words and doing nothing else. This kills my momentum, both at home and at work. What will I do with all my extra time?! lol!

Next, I'm working towards a digital detox, and Phase III will focus on that -- less time staring at random internets, less Spider,