I think I need swim therapy

SWIM: 55 mins and 1900y

Not sure if I added that up right, I think it was about that, but I lost count. Not a good swim.

I can't understand how anyone who swims 6-8K a week can get WORSE in swimming. Yeah, I know, more swimming does NOT equal better swimming, I know. But you'd just think that with all the time and practice I'd improve somewhat.

OK, I'm not ignoring my recent PR times. I'm just saying that on average, I think I'm getting worse.

What a downer.

I'm just having one of those mornings I guess. I woke up with sore hip and calf muscles from the weekend. So one Monday problem is that I come into the swim tired.

Another problem is that I feel like I got nothing done at the house over the weekend, so I'm mentally overwhelming myself there. I can think of a zillion little things I need to do....really, a zillion....from fixing training gear to finding CdA flights to website to family to house to emails to work to .... AAAAAAHHHHHHH

Sometimes I think I need a therapist. Like today. Everyone swimming so much faster than me. I get down on myself. It's not so much that I make excuses (I already know why I'm slow) but I just get all mental and start analyzing all my problems right there in the pool while I'm swimming. So instead of being focused on the swim my mind is planning swim lessons, adding up swim yardage that hasn't improved me, thinking about strength training for swimming.... and more. 

Then it just builds. And builds. I think of more I need to do. Then more. Then I freeze up, unable to decide what to do next. Then the wave comes crashing back like a tsunami wave. I can't outrun it. It washes over me and suddenly I'm carried away by a mental jumble of overwhelming thoughts and planning.

Then the water recedes and I'm left with a mess. A hastily scratched out list, half-finished projects, and out of order plans that need to be re-analyzed.

But the first order of business, as far as this blog goes, is to set some priorities and use my friends and coaches to help me through this.
1.  Replan the week if needed so I can focus on the Monday swim, it's the most quality of my swims. Talk to CP and CHG about my swimming and see if this slow-down is real or imagined. Then see what I can do about it. Lessons, different swim schedule?
2. Get Frea from Big Shark and talk to KJ about either new wheels or whatever I need to improve the bike for this season. Then take that discussion to my Big Brothers in the club and see what comes of it.
3. Get to BRR and start making decisions on what shoes I'm wearing for TTT and CdA. CP can help with the shoes questions for TTT--trail or road? As for CdA, I just need to start really thinking about trainers, stick with the Adrenalines or keep looking? 

Sound like a plan? Get focused. Get things done. And don't get overwhelmed by a stupid to-do list.