I will continue to decline the offer, and quit saying that "I'm Stuck"

ELLIPTICAL 10 + 30 pushing the effort in the last one
STRENGTH 25 or so mins of Legs C
No bike! It's too cold!

So the strength training is going great - 4 sessions this week! The elliptical is better with effort, I'm focusing on using the interval setting and staying in at least 70 rpm.  I feel it!

Yesterday the HamiltonTrained tried to counteroffer - "yeah I know it's a lot but don't you feel stuck? How long have you been stuck? Won't you always be stuck?" and that work, not trying to be funny here, stuck out to me.

Stuck. 

I used the word, I used it to describe how I felt that I didn't know what else to change and I didn't know why change wasn't happening for me. 

If I keep saying that I'm stuck, well then I'm going to be stuck!

What have I changed in just the month of May? 

1. Regular strength training

2. No dates
3. No treats and getting accurate
4. Stopping M3 and not just lingering
5. No phone at meals, no distractions

6. Regular, more fearless running routine with two-a-days and afternoons

That's a LOT, good for you, and the month of May started at 139.# and is ending at what looks to be a 133.# That was the goal I'd set in late April on the DTE run, and I've a few more days to know for sure. 

Yesterday I signed up for my free 14 day Noom trial. I'm still rearranging my headspace to think that instead of a spoonful of mayo (fat) that I could eat instead water-filled veggies and lower density foods (volume). That's their science anyway. Two days in, and I'm over the orange foods (PB, mayo, coconut milk) but that's foods I packed and picked before I started this. 

I spent way too much time the last two days thinking on meal plans. I found one that mixed protein, fat, starchy veg, non starchy veg, whole grain, fruit, and freebie - but so complicated to follow the mix n match. It's what MB at work probably does - she talks about something very similar. It's not paleo, and it's tempting me to eat oatmeal. Three strikes against. 

But I can follow the idea of it: 300 + 400 + 400 + 150 meals to get around 1200-1400 per day. That's just a baseline, with running it can go up. I'm trying to come up with standards on recipe cards that I can use to quickly meal prep, to get more variety, and still get what I need without too much or too little.