Thursday run with all the friends!

 RUN 6.25 miles in 1:04

COMMUTE 9.2 miles

I knew DC and LC would be joining, but I didn't know about TH!!!!! I teared up when I saw her :)

This was DC's welcome-back/sorta-goodbye run as well as LCs birthday (actually the 16th, Sunday). We planned a full loop!

Me, DC, LC, BE, EW, and TH took off easy, and as they always do the groups moved and changed through the run. First DC and EW up front, then DC and BE on Skinker Hill, then me and TH in the middle by the zoo, then LC took the pass around the stables and I waited with TH for EW, then TH dropped us by the dinosaur to catch the group. Me and EW came in last and cut the bridge section so we could meet with the group and they didn't have to wait.

We had EWs coffee and bagels, BEs "hotel checkin cookies", and my grapes and oranges - at the back of my truck in the parking lot. WONDERFUL!! I was wet and messy and wanted a shower (and I sipped the coffee and ooooh my gut didn't like this) but I didn't want this to end. So much news!! DC moving story. TH mentioned running a 100! LC and TH race stories - what they've done, what's canceled, who/what/where. TH and LC ask BE about the upcoming Pioneer Tri (the one I want to do).

LOVED IT!! This re-invigorates my desire to race again. To train regularly, with a goal.

I talked to BE on the Tuesday run about the St Louis Virtual Tri and the Pioneer Tri (this is the tri usually in April), but when I mentioned it the LA he didn't go for it. He said (text): "Oh hon, how about no significant racing until you recovery fully". I love it when he calls me hon. I had to ask, though, recover from what? He said," you had challenging issues in the winter. Don't count me as a stick in the mud - but I value you alive and healthy".

UGH. This just knocks me back, I'll never tell him though. There's so much doubt about me - family and friends - they seem to treat  me like a broken thing, or a think that likes to get broken. Heck, just today on the run in the last mile EW and I jumped back on the "you're gonna get injured train" of discussion and that left me feeling weakened.

Now, LA's text was Tuesday. So now this week I've had to people doubt me, that makes Me doubt Me! And worse, it only makes we want it MORE.