WORK 7am - 130am!
WALKED 12K but that's it.
And I'm back at work at 10 am the next day. Ugh. It's fucking cold outside, I'm having trouble staying warm. I'm always layered up and still cold. And as per conversation with Coach P, he's not telling me to run outside, but he's telling me that the Better Version of Me would run outside.
But the better version of me did a strength training on Monday and I'm sore as all hell. Yesterday it was like post-marathon leg burn. Today I took Tylenol!
From yesterday - start working on two meals a day, like 10am and 6pm. Stop the snacking. Stop the off plan stuff. And realize that hunger is not going to kill you, it will suck but it's not fatal. It will go away over time. But don't let it get you anxious.
Do a Thought Download every morning. Today's TD included stress about the work load, stress about the custody issues, thoughts about IF, and a congrats about a long day yesterday.
Yesterday I was 136.8 and came up with a zillion excuses: strength training swell, too much salt, PB M. Then today 134.0. Fucking fluctuations. But last Tuesday was 135 and weekend was 133.6. Fluctuations. Hold the course. Although I'm not adding back the run energy, I'm still noming the meals. I stand and hurry and surf the phone. I zone out and don't pay attention.
I had dinner last night over the course of hours. Was hungry when I got home at 1:45 and didn't eat. THen waited until 930 (cucumber) and 10 am (eggs and meat and ghee) today. I was hungry. But it won't kill me. It just distracts me.
Goal today: I wanted to run 6 or 2 miles, but I hurt and we'll see. I will sit and eat my peanut chick and berries dinner, then done. I will get to bed earlier. I won't use my phone during dinner. Sit and pay attention.
Other things from Patrick - those were the highlights I think. I gotta get to work. Also, this is kinda a Thought Dump too!
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