Back2Back Runs, another this weekend?

Thursday RUN 6 miles treadmill at 3pm 
Friday RUN 4.5 miles outside! at 730am

As per plan, I didn't run Tuesday due to a long day at work. Due to Tuesday fatigue and continued pains from Monday's strength session, I didn't run Wednesday either. Then on Thursday I woke up stressed, had lab meeting, then had appt with dental surgeon, then during LAs dental appointment I went to the gym. I felt much better after the run! But the emotions still weren't cleared out. I didn't take care of them, I just buried them. 

So when we got home, after getting rings measured and a trip to Walgreens, I came home tired, cold, and hungry. I ended up eating a fast random M dinner before my shower. Ended up stressed about that. Ended up stressed and cold and regretting, went to bed overfull and stressed. 

Common theme here - I'm stressed. I can't pinpoint a cause, except it feels like everything.

Today, I ran outside! LAs truck is in the shop so he took the car. I'm a bit miffed that he just takes the car and there's no addressing how that impacts my plans and my schedule. What about my gym time? I can't really easily get to the gym without the car. Yet there was just this assumption that he can start taking the car early in the morning and I'll wing it however I can, if I can. 

There, I said it, I've been holding that thought back last 2 days. Now it's out there. Another common theme here - what about me?! 

Lately I feel as if everything happening around me is happening to me and not in my favor. I get to clean up dog vomit (at 2am this morning, and I emotionally cracked over it). I get to clean up the gel mess at work. I get to manage coworkers who apparently can't manage themselves. I get to clean up the kitchen counter mess, do laundry, clean floors, clean the house, take care of the dog, manage meals and food selection, cooking and clean up, more. "I get to" is what I say, but that's not how it feels. 

So this morning I did my Thought Download, some watercolors, my daily chores (I get to clear the countertops too), then once the sun was up enough went for a run! It snowed overnight, a crunch half inch, and I wasn't the first one to enjoy it. I did the Pioneer High Loop, 4.5 miles. It was cold, it wasn't easy to run on snow, but the delight of being able to do it was great. 

AND - I'm successfully IF today, it's 11am and I'm hungry but I need to wait just a bit. I can do this. I don't feel good when I eat to early, I regret it and it's off the goals that I've made for myself. I'll live. Embrace the Suck. 

The Better Version of You ran outdoors today, and the Better Version of You will wait until after 11, maybe wait until noon? (Go pass your cells!)