Happy Birthday Bee!

 Happy Birthday, Bee!!

What a day this is turning out to be. LA and I drove back from MO last night after seeing the kids. We arrive around 230am or so, bed by 3 or 330 am or so or whatever does it matter. It was raining then and it's raining now. So aside from being brain-dull, I'm off my "habits" because I didn't get to bike to work and took the bus instead. Further, I didn't get to walk my dog as she was picked up from the kennel right before I left for the bus. 

So - changes. Different Day, as I sometimes call it. And a day full of Different and Changes means different Choices. And I think that's going to be a theme for me for awhile.

Last night I listened to JBP on Sacrifice - the action of choosing to delay gratitude now in order to make a better future. That's what I need to focus on in the next few months. Making choices that benefit Future Bee. 

Chose to follow your plans for the day, to sleep and eat and move, to be grateful and open, to not sabotage or lie. The day is full of choices, as JBP would say the day manifests itself as a series of choices for you to make. And it's up to me to make the choices for the Future, for the Good and for the Betterment of myself. 

Today is a good example - I'm forcing choices for myself to make sure I keep moving when all I want to do it sit or sleep. Don't linger and eat because that's easier than doing something else and you mind thinks more food equals more energy. Today it won't. 

I've made and re-made my to do list a few times now, I keep adding to it and oddly the birthday present I'd want to have it clear by the end of the night! Then sleep. Lots of it. 

This is a disorganized post - it seems so clear in my head but doesn't translate today. 

And what a year this turned out to be! We then moved to MI on the same day I found out I needed ankle surgery, we continued living half -here/half-there until July when I finally left StL for a new house, a new job, and a new life. That new life, by the way, also includes 153 days of no Azuc and the slow rotting death of M. I tried the AIP to unknown/unsure benefit. I'm using a list of no-go's for me that includes no grains, sugars, alcohol, major starches. I'm better for it! It's hard though. No sushi!

I recovered from ankle surgery (152 days ago) and I'm running again! The recovery was up and down, I seriously had days in which I thought I'd never run again. I had days I didn't know that I even wanted to run again. But now it's like I can't get enough. Even though I'm dead-tired right now I would run if I could. 

And biking! LA bought two bikes yesterday and I might now have a new bike partner. That's how we started just over 2 years ago now - on bikes on the MCT, followed by sushi. I should get at least sushi worked back into my diet. 

Well, I need to get back to work, I'll come back to this as the next 12 weeks progress - the 12 weeks in which I'm committed to making better choices. Today - just too tired and I'm choosing to come back to this later!