Priority Problems

BIKE: 50 mins 15 miles ILT and 15min TT effort
BIKE: 60 mins 17 miles 3x8min 75%

Missed yesterday's swim, I didn't get home until late and the doggie needed a break. I've yet to run today, but I'm going to wait until it warms up!!

Stress! The word of the week, no just yesterday, is STRESS. So much to do and so little time in the world. Returning to work yesterday after an extended break was hard, I'm having a crisis of career. I learned yesterday that my collaborators in Seattle have NOT started my samples, after promising them done by Thanksgiving. Now I have to wonder if the work will ever get done, will my work ever get done, or will I have to leave it unfinished? It's hard to be excited about finding another job when the first one isn't done.

Just behind that stress is the FBR, which only has 11 more days to go. Surprisingly, that is not a direct stressor for me it's just more of a To Do list. And I love To Do's.

As for training, it's taking a back seat to the FBR. While swimming or biking, I'm thinking about the race. While running, I'm trying to experience what the runners will and anticipate their needs.

And I have a Red Cross shift tonight. I'm torn about what to do about this. It's only 2 8hr shifts a month, but those 16hrs are a killer for us. And it's really more than 16 hrs in the end. Rich was going to go out tonight, but now isn't and I worry it's because someone needs to be home for the dog. --I spend Monday night getting ready for Tuesday, I leave work early Tuesday, I get to work late on Wednesday.... If that's true that Rich is changing his plans for me, that's so unfair for him. But what is my 16 hrs worth when balanced against someone losing their home and needing help?? And it's worse when I spend the shift waiting for a house to light up and one never does. I start to feel my time was wasted, even though I spent the time catching up on club duties, emails, etc. Which brings up another point, that I need to take Rich's laptop from him again to work on these duties (I think he wants me to get my own computer) and now some club duties have been pulled from me (because they think I'm already too busy). Ugh. Why am I putting all this here? To remind myself of my Priorities. Which are all mixed to hell right now.

Red Cross needs to change--I can't help everyone else all the time.
FBR will be over soon, just 10 more days.
Training is a personal priority--needs to be balanced against home life.
The house is a dual priority that we need to share--that isn't happening.
Rich and my family are a first priority--
Work--work sux.
Me--I'm my first priority. My time, my goals, and my self are Numero Uno. How selfish is that.