Motivation Monday

 am - Walk just the loop, and did 7 min workout app 

LA has made major changes in the past month, and it's showing. Both his body and his outlook have improved! He quit alcohol and dairy, reduced carbs way down, and seems to be skipping a lot of meals. He's exercising twice a day and says last week he walk/ran 31 miles. His goals are set and said aloud, he's open about it and not ashamed. I love it, it's fun to see! 

Me - I'm trying to make changes but it's not happening yet. My body slipped backwards in the past month as measured by my HJ. I quit fake butter and potatoes and cocoa and canned pumpkin, and for what? I'm exercising more like he is, but not as much. I want to, but I'm not. I don't know my mileage. My goals are private and kept secret, and I'm sorta ashamed and can't admit out loud. I don't love it. 

Sunday morning I sat on the side of the bed while he slept in a bit, and he gave me a motiviating talk. I keep thinking, that I'm not in my body, that I'm not motivating, that I can't change. But he gave a wonderful talk about how I did motivate him to change, how I'm healthy, and how he knows from before that he can change and lose weight so he knows he can make the same changes now. 

Before. I'm stuck in Before. Before the heart attack. Before the M took over. Before M's minion of B took over. 

But go back to another Before of 2013. That summer had a rough spot, and one take away from it was that I committed to changes. I can't remember the exact changes, but I do remember committing to getting healthier and fixing gut problems and getting stronger and leaner. It worked. 

I changed, and I changed. 

Then in 2019 I again changed, and again I changed. 

Now it's 2023. Ten years later. I can change again. Yesterday I planned out a great meal plan for the week and prepped all the meals. It's satisfying (I hope), satisfying (I think), and a good plan (I know). 

Coach P said it's consistency. I've lacked consistency. I eat bananas and potatoes in hotel rooms, is that what caused weight gain? Likely too the indulge of the fake butter, gawds so good but sooooo bad. Well anyway, consistency means keeping to food plan, keeping to schedule, keeping to goals day by day. So see below!

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This past weekend I made it to the gym as per goal, and it felt great! And on the way out I put my name in the fishbowl for the free personal training session. I found out just a few mins ago - I WON!  Joe called me, same guy I met with last fall, and he asked what I'd like to focus on. This was easy.

I've fallen out of the groove, lost motivation, need a change. This could be the start of it.