Sleeping-in = Stress out

 COMMUTE 9.2 miles

SWIM (ETA) 900 yards kinda rushed

I actually put sleep in on my list of things to do, but when I write that down I don't mean sleep in until 8:30am, which is what happened. I think maybe until 7am. My other goal was a regular walk in addition to a dog walk, that regular walk never happened. But the dog walk did, and I felt much less stressed afterwards. I was a stress ball before it -- hurry scurry and worry. Hurry to fix brekkie, pack lunch, make LA brekkie, get this, get that. Ugh. I know it's happening but I still can't stop it. 

What was I saying yesterday, that I need to learn to see it happening as it's happening? Yeah, that. 

Today I biked in, felt better after that, then wasted (?) half an hour coping a swim plan into post-it notes. Super stress relieving, but it's a false relief. As soon as I'm done, it's back. I print a calendar, look at my training plan, feel the stress. 

I set goals, then don't meet them. Today I wanted to sit down and have a normal breakfast, instead of my rushed-out-the-door version. I don't know if I would have made it there, but LA grabbed his brekkie, threw gluten on my eggs (he didn't know, I didn't say), he sat down to eat and left me on clean-up. Why does that stress me? I just see a disaster of containers and crumbs. He got to enjoy breakfast, I ended up eating in another hurry standing at the counter top. Fail. Again.

So reset goal to dinner. Lately he wants to watch something on the phone, I just want a quiet dinner with him. We'll see what happens. I'm selfish and controlling, it seems. 

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SWIM update -- I got home still stressed to find that LA had done for me a lot of the little household chores! Happy and Guilty, is how I felt. I super appreciate the help, it's like a clog is cleared. But guilty because he could have been studying, and this is sorta like enabling me. I showed up late for the swim and pushed to 900 yards, at which point the lifeguard asked me to finish up. Done! Good swims this week, but I gotta start doing more than just 1000 yards per session, as most any training plan I'd normally have isn't just 100 and 200 y sets, more like 300+ yard sets. But honestly, I'm not that far into this yet, I still need more practice so I stick this short training plan out until it's done.