NOTHINGNESS except walking
Rain yesterday and some of day. Even some snow today in the morning. Combined with appointments yesterday and today that required driving, I ended up walking to and from the parking lot.
I realized a little bit ago that this counts and "Phase I: Walking Program" input: must be able to walk pain free, aggressively, (~4.2-5.2 mph)...before beginning the plyometric and walk/jog program.
When not walking the dog, I walk. This walk isn't long, but here I was thinking "golly I need to get to the gym for some treadmill too see if it hurts" but not necessarily, I'm getting walking in and it doesn't hurt. I confess to even jogging ever so little the last few days. Across the street. Down the hill to parking. Along the block on they way to sushi last night.
Gawd it felt so good. To move, to feel the wind, to be coordinated and alive and whole.
Yesterday was appt at SLU with Dr McM. I like her, this appointment was painless. In more ways than one. But it'll be even better once the results come back. I'm not expecting anything, but we've all seen how shit goes down around here.
Today's appt was with JennMcD - the nutritionist recommended by the ortho Dr after my recent stress fracture. I almost cancelled this. I really wanted to. What did I have to gain? I've already put so much research and time and testing into my nutrition. What did I have to lose? Well, money. And you we've all seen how that influences shit around here.
Side note - the 1st floor thermostat said 50F this morning and I still don't have the heat one. Money, yo.
We reviewed my history of foods, from when I was 15 and sick after lunch in biology class to the recent abandonment of my "heart healthy" diet last month. A solid 20 minutes and I still didn't hit all the bases. A number of points came up, interwoven together, and I'll hit them separately.
1. Try resistant starches. I've been avoiding these because they essentially ferment in the gut and wasn't that the whole problem to begin with? ResStar (you won't find me using the abbreviation here) promote the "good" bacteria in the colon with many miraculous and trendy health benefits as the outcome. Anything from lower cholesterol, improved insulin sensitivity, increased bone mass, decreased inflammation and leaky gut, increased satiety, weight loss, regrowth of amputated limbs (ok kidding) all listed as reasons to eat it. Of course all this pedaled out by those selling the shit. I have papers and PubMed up, reading on it. But it's probably safe to say that I could buy a Bob's Red Mill package as recommended and give it a try and see how it goes before I can finish reading about it.
2. Share a food log. So I set up Cronometer, I already have the app and I like it.
3. My food list isn't as restrictive as I think it is. My protein levels are great, fat low but OK, fiber OK. She seems mostly focused about the carbs with all the training. The upcoming training I mean. But she recognizes that being low carb is working better for me.
4. Try brown rice (cooled), green peppers, and a few others. I think more will follow on this. Rice. Yuck. Chewy little nuggets of sticky flavorless ugh. Can I eat it with butter?
5. My goals: validation of what I'm eating, find a way to heal, and expand my food choices if possible.
I got into the mental issues I'm having -- the resistance to the extrinsic reasons of why I should eat this or that (like dairy, grains, etc) because "it's healthy", how I don't like eating and wish I could just take a pill, how I don't enjoy food and feel a slave to it.
She pointed out something that I'll take to heart - that I should just accept that I need to eat some of these foods, like dairy, because there's a reason behind it. Fair statement, and it give me control back of my choices.
I didn't get into the bad eating habits -- standing at the counter top, not eating a real meal and instead munching, the tendencies to get in the groove of eating one food and cleaning the container out in less than a day (PB, CW, the like), the habit of just eating food out of the container with a spoon, the M.
Speaking of M, gone for now. Full week. Moved out. Haven't seen him. Fucker.
And didn't get into my final goal of body recomposition. I don't want to make this a weight loss/recomposition thing but maybe my 3rd goal of it is. I've gained weight eating foods I don't like and being injured. This doesn't feel like my body -- strong and flexible and adaptable -- not so much the weight but the feel of how I feel. How to say this. I don't feel strong. The extra weight not helping. I gained weight because I was told I 'needed to' and because 'it would be healthy' and well fuck that shit because here I am with weight gain still injured and feeling worse.
So my goals:
Better eating habits
Confirmation/validation/adjustment of food choices for health
Body recomposition
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