COMMUTE still 2 miles or so from FoPa
Gawd it feels so nice outside, and I really should take a half day to get some stuff done outside of work! I 'banked' 15 hours over the weekend, should cash in on that before it gets chilly. Take Puppy to the MCTs maybe? I'd love to, but.... Go for a walking hike on Chubb? I'd love to, but...
Fucking hip injury. The bone itself has not hurt since my Dr L visit. That's great new IMO. But I have very noteworthy and bilateral (!) soft tissue pain. I'm not sure what it is -- it's the outer-yet-still anterior sides of the hip, an anatomy map puts in near or in the tensor fasciae latea or the anterior superior iliac spine part of the pelvic bone that connects the the sartorius. Now I'm also having anterior quad pain, and if I had to guess the sartorius or rector femoris. Again this is all me looking at a muscle map and saying "it hurts right about ... here".
It hurts to climb stairs. It hurts to stretch out after sitting. I have a noticable limp many times.
Does this pain have to go away before I can run or bike again? Fucking sucks.
Dealing with this gives me a feeling of fragility, a word that came up in a podcast, referring to caregivers and doctors who "fragilize" the patient. This might be the best word to describe why I feel so resentful of having to take meds, have multiple doctor visits and appointments, and all the tests. They remind me that I have fragilities. Every one does. I just don't deal with them very well.
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