Dr L and the 4 or 5 things

COMMUTE 3.5 miles

Yes I want every damned mile I can get.

Appt with Dr L today and I had a list of things to ask about, including when I can add in any activity, why is my right arm and hand prone to tingling lately, what's going on in my upper back/lower neck with I pull my shoulders back, and why it is so pained and tight to walk after sitting. Naturally I didn't address much of this, not wanting to sound like a problem child complainer pansy ass.

The sitting to standing and walking -- he measured my right hip flexor with the lunge. Pre treat was 10 inches, post treatment 13 inches and feeling much better. Now we'll see if I limp so much? He worked on the illiapsoas (?) which is lower abdomen above the pelvic bones. He said this was "bad" and a "grade 2.5". He also said to this asst that he can dig into me, that I don't fight back, and I can take the pain. Oh, the challenge. Is this location where I felt the pull in the lower abdomen a few months ago? Mayhaps.

Then my lower back, the usual schtuffs. While that was being measured, I asked if I can add back any activities, he said not until there's no pain. Kinda under my breath (I was in cat-stretch) I said "....killing me". Now I honestly don't know if I said "you're" or "this is" or "it's" ahead of that. Different meanings. I sure didn't mean to imply this is his fault, but I think in my brain it's "them" that limits me, and I'm having a real mental issue with that lately.

Themses always telling me what to do. What to eat, what not to eat. What meds to take. What exercise limits I have. Etc. Etc. Etc. Problem child complainer pansy ass whino.

This launched into a discussion from him, and as always I wished I could have recorded it. Essentially, 4-5 reasons this happened. He repeated again that this bone shouldn't have broken, the broke-the-hammer-not-the-nail statement, that another bone should have broken first maybe. Anyway.

1. Nutritional deficiency due to malabsorption
2. Bone weakness due to previous malabsorption (ie 2013-2015 issues)
3. Muscle weakness, led to joint impact
4. Overtraining and thus overloading the body
5. Something else entirely.

All good reasons. I mentioned that some docs think I'm an undiagnosed celiac. Note that I don't say that I think I'm an undiagnosed celiac. Themses do, not me. (denial?). He then mentioned a Dr he and his wife have seen, and the successful treatments for her scleroderma and his eczema. This Dr uses "frequencies to treat infections, to keep the viruses from moving around", and found Lyme and HMCV in Dr L. Said he didn't believe in the treatments at first, debated and doubted, but once he followed the protocol (naturopathic) it worked. Some research online shows its called bioresonance, measurements of the galvanic skin response.

Huh. The scientist in me sees this a few ways. I'd like to see this treatment to call bunko on it. I'd like to see what the evidence is. I'd like to see what I get from it, just to poke holes.

The sick problem child whiny maggot pansy ass in me just wants to know what the hell is going on.

Fuck all this shit.

But in the meantime I'm looking at my options. I treat me? Find a specialist? Find a functional medicine person? Go get bioresonance scanned?  Haha.