Reviewed 2014 to prep the 2015 book. Opened my eyes. But don't look back.

BIKE COMMUTE 9.5 miles

I know, that's not really training. But it's all I did today!

Last night before bed I pulled out my 2014 blog book so I could set the print dates for the 2015 book. I started reading through January -- the start of the MiTi training block and my goal setting period. What a shocker, and like a different life than I live now.

I had goals, a specific training plan, lots of thoughts and progress and go-here go-there stuff to do. Having three sports to train for does that! But I was also mentally driven, physically and mentally healthy, ... yet I seemed sort of ... obsessed.

In retrospect it makes sense. If I knew what was going on subconsciously and wanted to avoid that knowledge, a good way to do it is to throw yourself into something and stay distracted. But I'm not giving him credit for my success in 2014. Ain't worth the whiskey, so to speak. Besides, I threw myself into Kettle training last year and succeeded, so yeah, no credit.

Nowadays I'm training, but wouldn't say that I spend a great deal of time thinking on goals and workouts. I'm following a plan that's too vague for intervals. Having only one sport makes it easier because (as evidenced by this past weekend) it's a real time save to just roll out the door in running shoes.

Nowadays I feel sludgy, isolated, and out of place. My physical and mental energy don't seem to be what they used to be. I even walk slow! My mind is just as loopy and distractable. Sometimes I wonder if my dietary changes lead to my feelings of weakness and lack of strength. Maybe even my mental fuzz.

I'm through the distractions of last year, now facing new ones. Between the shoulder injury (on the mend), my GI issues, bone issues, and continuing Disney saga my mind is still full. I'm occupying my time better though, reading 3 books right now (TV's Berlin, Low Carb book, and the fun Unprocessed), I've trained my dog to 'be sleepy', 'find your tail', and 'pick up your toys'. Yesterday I finally finished the guest room closet shelving system.

But I still feel ... weak. Out of sorts. Not myself. What can I change?

Well first off, my mental attitude. Gotta SHIFT, yo. Stop thinking of myself as weak and isolated and out of sorts. I made that my goal for today, and so far it helps. I had a good brekkie, got out the door on time, remembered to brush my teeth before getting out the door, kept focused at work and got started on my assay right away. All good!

I also saw in 2014 that I attempted a LifestyleWhole30 for January. Sadly many of the goals I'd set in the month I'd also set for this Whole9 thing I'm doing right now! Nothing changed?! To be fair, 2014 and 2015 had lots other stuff going on, but it's still kinda sad to see a lack of progress.

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