More frustrations spill out

COMMUTE 7.6 miles

I got a much better (and unassisted) sleep last night, a nice 930-630 of mostly right through sleep. Much needed, and I woke up much more clear headed than the last 3 days. And still more frustrations spill out. Is it OK to keep these in, or better OK to let them out? 

Today, it was the email I got from ULAM (kindly cc'd to the division chair) about how I'm LATE getting the protocol submitted and I have only until Sunday to get it to them. That started a rant about work, and a vent (also a need for advice) about working situations. 

Yesterday the food processer I didn't want arrived, and I insisted that it's sent back. Why? All I wanted was to WAIT and not RUSH to get something we probably don't need. And certainly don't need for $300. Can I at least see if I can work without it, given that I barely used it anyway? No apparently not, it was a rush buy I didn't even get to read about. 

THEN - it becomes "my fault" because I'm not letting him be nice and buy things for me. What? I don't need THINGS. I need a hug. I need someone to also pick up a broom and sweep the floor. I need someone to prepare meals with me. I need support, not THINGS. $300. Ugh. 

And the kids phone calls. Misery. They act (are they acting?) like they don't like us. "I don't want to talk today". Sitting there with a sulky look on his face, like it just fucking PAINS him to have to sit and even consider dealing with us. There really isn't a God, is there, because if there was he'd show mercy to his loyal subjects and exempt them from phone call. Ha. But no, I have to act myself now, act like I'm not hurt by this two-faced switch of personalities. 

I know, they're kids in a shitty situation. But still, what loving God would do this to them? 

So frustrations. 

How to solve? Actionables?

1. MC offered to help with the protocol, so I took her up on it.
2. I need to tell MB and PA to stop bitching about MC to me.
3. I'll read reviews on the processor and see if my other processor will take it's place, then decide on returning it. I'm leaning towards returning it. 

4. Just keep acting, I guess.