Tuesday nothing?!
Wednesday HIIT in garage, RUN 2 miles with LA, COMMUTE 7.2 miles
A very late night flight due to delays, trouble falling asleep, but we were up around 630. I got him out the door, did my stuff and my HIIT, no time to run and I'm already late to work.
I'm working on the 5 Qualities. I have two Negatives that really overlap and last night while falling asleep I' realized that one of them is actually Disbelief, or Lack of Belief (in myself).
Positive: Cleanliness, Puzzles, Learning, Motion, Flight
Negative: Entrenched, Blind, Denial, Externalized,Ignorant Faithless
Negative: Entrenched, Blind, Denial, Externalized,
These align kinda, although the alignments aren't settled yet.
Tuesday - yesterday the UM internet was down, and now today my phone is with LA because I left it in the car. Ugh, no audiobook. Have I mentioned yet that I put a website blocker on at work? No more reddit!! And that I blocked reddit and waste-time sites on my phone too? OH MAN, the times I WASTED.
I'm out of sorts today. Woke up late, distracted by S anxiety, S anxiety confirmed after yesterday's salt+azuc evening.
Like an omen, yesterday HamiltonTrained sent an email about your Monday home-from-work stressed-emotional-eating patterns and how to work on it. Yikes. I lived out that email yesterday! What happened?! I was all out of habit yesterday, off meals, schedule, mental capacity, energy. All out of whack. I pieced together the day, we went to Aldi so I could spend a few hours Monday eve putting the rest of the week together with my meal prep. By the time we got to Aldi, I was Hungry, like 8/10. Dragging, sleepy, hungry.
Home. And like the floodgates open of FOOD. I'm so hungry! I random together a dinner while prepping. I didn't overeat, but I stressedeat. New word.
HamiltonTrained says I should have journaled (and I KNEW this, I'd read the email before coming home, yet still didn't do it.....There's a Quality for that!) about What Do I Feel Right Now?
How did I feel? Rushed. Hurried. Smothered somehow. My face felt like it was covered, that's a weird thing to say. I felt stretched thin, yet without a specific anxiety to put it on.
It can happen again today!!! I can happen BETTER today!!!
Wednesday Up a bit late to HIIT in garage, a bit chillier 2 mile run, and a commute! A full morning, and actually exercising. Last night was better, I was so tired but not as hungry, home then to Costco then home again, a 2-fer.
A Blue Super Moon today! Perigee at noon, and Full at 936pm. My goal started: Sit, no phone, and plate. No more tupperwares. Calm down and focus.
Today (and next two days) I get home alone. I have phone call today at 530, I gotta be careful, mindful, and follow my plan of shoes, up, wash face, water, 5' journal, a small chore (call?) - all before M3.
ETA - I came home, right to wash face and phone call, then part of M3 before I diverted to two chores, then seated M3 with LA, but then nomnomnomnom. Bed on time, calm, and not sick.
Wrote new goals today!
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