Thurs RUN 5.3 miles and COMMUTE 7 miles
Fri COMMUTE 7 miles
Today is Friday, and tomorrow is two weeks without an M. Yay.
I'm so tired and flat though. Yesterday was yet another medical appointment, with yet another waiting period until the imaging. 3 weeks this time. I'd like to put it out of my head until then, but it hasn't happened yet. It hangs over me.
And after reading the rheumatologist's super-complete note summary of my medical hx, I became even more down. The start of it all - the 2014 events that bled into 2015 - marks the transition between healthy and less-than-healthy. Well to be fair, I'm healthy. I just have some issues. Every year it seems.
I need to get out of this mental funk, it might take a few days. I just want to sleep and sleep and sleep.
I'm not being fair to me and worse I'm not being fair to anyone else around me. I'm no fun to be around and I feel like an imposter. Everyone things I'm something I'm not. I'm not a successful scientist/super athletic/cool parent. I'm an imposter.
I'm losing control of everything. At least I can keep the house mostly clean. And the dog walked. And myself mostly fed.
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