Yesterday: another Day 1

NOTHING?!

Nothing yet anyway, for the 2nd day in a row I came into work with LA at 6-7am. This prevents me going to the gym. I don't know if the busses are running? So here I sit typing when I have LOTS I can get done, yet I'm typing. With coffee. And this is my Thought Download too. 

Yesterday's appointment didn't bother me so much. The lead-in thinking about it was worse than the actual appointment. The things I think I want to say, I don't actually say in the appointment. The things I really want to fix, or maybe more accurately the things I CAN fix are being done here and with Coach P. 

I don't mention the mental and physical changes. I mention the symptoms and things I'd like to or are ignoring. The worst of it was knowing I could pick up my phone and see a new result. The results did trickle in, some of them worrying, more so once LA starts thinking on them. But blood from a female can have multiple sources, as proven later and more this morning. Ugh. I can really hate this part of my body. 

So I continue to wait, and yet I really doubt anything will be found or come out of it. Doubt, or denial?

But I was much more calm than usual about this appointment. Good for me! Let's move on to what I CAN change about all this.

I set up my goals last night, 15 of them in my app. Also 5 more in the other app, some overlap. 16 goals actually, including M. Of those, I did 13!! I missed:
1. 1300 for post M3 nibbles of LAs russian foods and tomatoes at the countertop
2. Noon-7 because I nibbled above
3. Follow the plan, because of above.

I added another goal, Resist!!! to recognized that I really wanted more of my chicken meal, and I didn't do it. Instead though, I ate zucchini and tomatoes. I did that standing while he cooked. 

Those are exceptions, and they can grow into something bigger and problematic. 

What went right? I waited to sit down, I nom'd only veggies standing up, I didn't go back for a second meal, I didn't eat fruit, I warmed up the food, I only used utensils (even on lettuce), I didn't nom while cooking (and oh that's a huge problem usually), I didn't eat fruit!!!!  The wait until after noon was easy.

What needs attention? I didn't just live with the H, I had to address it with cucumbers. OK, not the worst choice! But it's still an avoidance tactic. LA was cooking his russian recipe and I knew that I'd want to try some. I didn't eat much, but the issue is that I KNEW full well that I could have less of my meal to account for it, and I didn't. Also, instead of just addressing the habit of wanting more after dinner, I fed that crave with zucchini and tomato. Maybe that's going to be my weaning process? 

Good job! (Especially with the low anxiety about the doctor appointment!)

50 days until the next appointment
74 days until the Coach 3-months is over
80 days (11 weeks) until the marathon (still not signed up) (still type marathong at first!)