Brain Pain Dump

In VCP meeting today Terri offered to make us cookies for the 4 surgeries she's sending next week, then said "tracy eats real healthy" and "send your favorite cookies" and I'm wondering if "cookies" can be a mug mash of yogurt, instant oats, PB, and PP. I guess you can eat such that people think you're "real healthy" but still be overweight and gain 10 pounds in 6 months. :(

Yesterday I was bounce nom'ing the above mentioned mug mash, and yet still I wonder how 10 in 6 happened. 

Today my bra doesn't fit, my pants kinda fit, my scrubs certainly didn't fit, my belly folds when I sit. 

I get an add for Factor_ meal kits and realize it's just prepacked food in measured portions. I'm already "doing that" but NO I'm NOT doing that. See above mentioned mug mash. 

This all hurts. 

To lose 10 in 6 months means Dec 10th, which is past my goal of under 125 by my birthday. The birthday is 19 weeks away...That's 1-1.5lbs a week. 

I've been doing this math since I lived in my dorm in college. Earlier likely. But I remember doing these maths. 

Just doing Math won't solve this!

This all hurts.