Solutions? Well for now, it's sex

 LA came back from Cape G last night in a mood, tired frustrated (with me), saying house is too big we don't need it; I need to find a different job that gives me holidays; he wants to retire tomorrow from everything, more. He comes home in this mood and isn't talking or wanting to interact. He goes to bed. 

I have more to do, clean up, pack, 20 mins left of a walk, dog, etc. I go to bed early too, being with him in bed is really what I want more of, so here's my chance. We end up in a conversation, needed, and hopefully helpful. Another conversation this morning, my notes will blend. He wants more sex. Everyday. He wants sex in the morning and in the evening and 2-3 times a day. It's evolutionary, men need sex every morning and some science experiment proved this, uh huh. And he'd be happier with just sex, something to fuck. 

He also said the happiest time in his life was when he was single and on the outer banks. I asked who he fucked, no one, but he was still happy? 
And lesbians have a higher divorce rate because it's two women, and women complicate things. Uh huh.

I said I wanted to be valued as more than "titties ass and pussy", more than just "how many holes do you have to fuck". Actual words he used. I want to feel  be trusted and valued and have my wants desired. He was argumentative on this, and he accuses me of being argumentative?

I'm sure he could write the exact same thing, that I was the argumentative one today. 

I doubt he'd write it. Women complicate things. I'm a woman, he's not. So he's not about to be so introspective about this. 

So this morning, as per his want, I cut short my 45 mins to 30 and came upstairs to get naked. 

As not per his want, I needed to talk. He argued with me. He just wants sex. More sex. 

Then he will be happy? Or is this just a stress response dopamine thing? I know about those, I went through that in 2019 - needing escape and relief. I say that Sex is better than Monster and Balrog!

So, reducing the morning workout to 30 mins to give extra 15 minutes to Us. 

A solution for today. And one day at a time.