End of March Wrap-Up

Weds: SWIM 2150 in 45 mins, 3x500
           BIKE 22.2 in 1:15, 5x7 mins
Thurs: RUN 53-54 mins for the 6.6 mi loop
Fri: BIKE 1hr about 18 miles of stress relief
Sat: BIKE 1:45 and about 30 miles?
       SWIM 1hr and 2500y, 7x200 all just over 4 mins
Sun: OFF
Mon: OFF

What a whirlwind of a week. I can't even remember how it all ended, the last few days are a fuzz!

DH was out of town for the week, my leg is bothering me when I run, my family was visiting over the weekend, and of course the dog was not 100% either. Oh and my appt with the surgeon was today. She first made a mess in our bedroom, then I found a smell in the guest room around Weds night. Through Thursday and Friday I tried to find and clean the mess, and the lack of success only ratcheted up my stress levels. How could I expect anyone to want to sleep in there!?

So Friday night during another cleaner incubation, I got in a stressed out bike ride. The day did not go according to my schedule, and I hit near-breaking point.

Saturday morning DH is back but sleeping in, so I do some more cleaning and another ride. I'm quiet as long as I can tolerate, then I wake him up with my guest room complaints. I don't know why he puts up with me, I get him out of bed to sniff a smelly room, then while I'm starting to crack he comes up with a solution to fix it. We spend the morning working on that. The whole time, I'm obsessing about my swim. The same swim I missed Thurs then again on Friday. I was determined to get it, OCD like. We finish cleaning, and I swim. It ain't pretty. My 200's are all just over 4 mins. They should be just UNDER 4 mins!

Parents arrive Sat evening and we get a late dinner. I sleep in Sunday as planned, kinda wanting to run but telling myself that the leg needs rest and there's no really good reason to run and make it worse.

Monday I skip the Evolve swim thinking I'd get it in the afternoon. But after the appts, dinner, and everything else of course it didn't happen. At least I'm not stressed about it.

The appt was good, but it looks like I'll be undergoing surgery after B2B. If it happens before B2B, it means things didn't go well for me this summer!

And wow what a nice segue into that topic.

The past few weeks since the last "events" I've been skittish around food again. After months of wanting to fix the problems, then weeks of intensive fixing, I've slipped back into the old habit of eating because I feel I "have to". This was especially bad last week -- a few nights I overate thinking "I need more calories!". But I don't! At least, not like that -- crammed down in a poorly planned dinner.

Well it just so happens that tomorrow is the first of the month, what better time to repeat my W30 challenge of January. I know I need to do this, the past few days had a few aborted starts (it's hard to start something like that with family and other schedule changes). But after dinner tonight -- at which I manged veggies until I could pop -- it's time to review the January thoughts I had and get back on track. This time with a slightly different purpose and a bigger goal: to keep out of surgery until after B2B, and to undo the neurosis I'm developing.

Here's how I ended January:
The LifestyleWhole30 ends tomorrow, and days like today have me planning ahead to the next month. Yup, it's gonna keep going! This month's changes of mindful actions, pre-planned meals, sit-down non-distracted eating, and increased scheduling have been great for me. I've been slipping a little as the month winds down, but I have identified a few trouble areas to work on. Specifically, bringing more food for long days and post-training, pre-planning mornings so I can get out the door on time, and streamlining the weekend duties to the entire thing isn't spend preparing for the week.

Here's how I ended March: Stressed, tired, off-balance. Unhappy with work, unhappy with a lot of things. Belly so full from dinner I'm uncomfortable. Dog starts barking and I don't even want to get up to see why. Leg needs foam rolling and here I sit typing. Lots of mental churning, note writing in my planning book, but not much happening.

March came in like a lion -- with the 2nd "event". It went out like a lamb, bleating and whining and weak.

Time to turn it around and get focused!