Summer week 2: marathon training? And it's NOT "let's fix it", it's "I need to fix me"

Monday COMMUTE 7  miles and BIKE 3.5
Tuesday COMMUTE 7 miles and RUN 2 with LA
Wednesday COMMUTE 7 miles and BIKE 2.4
Thursday RUN 3 solo and COMMUTE 7 miles
Friday COMMUTE 7 miles
Saturday RUN 4 miles with LA and kids on bikes
Sunday BIKE! 16.6 miles in little over an hour, BIKE 3.2 miles with arlette

NUMERICS 76 total miles
BIKE 31.8
RUN 9.14
COMMUTE 35 miles

Monday Sugar had her surgery, so it was a half day at work. LA and I biked home together! The kids and I noodled around the neighborhood in light rain in a Mad-Libs type of ride.

Tuesday I left the house late to care for Sugar, LA and I were up at 5am for a 2 mile run. Near the end, he said "I'm fat" and I immediately thought "well let's fix it" and I kept quiet, because I knew that I need to fix me and he needs to fix he. We can't do it for each other. 

I noted in a recent post that I feel like I'm backsliding. The progress I made with coach P was lost and I have to get it back. I've struggled with M, I'm talking to IronBee in my head, and seeing how other around me eat is reflecting some of my challenges and it hurts to see. 

Today might be the start of a marathon training program that lands on Hennepin weekend. I'm hoping for the 50K at least. Today also TH messaged me a picture from IMKS 12 years ago?! WHAT!?

Wednesday M is at bay this week, there's an urge but no desire

Thursday I ran alone this morning, LA ran earlier and left for work. I'm work out from late nights and he is even more so. My jaw symptoms that started a few days ago (tight, mild pain, unable to fully open or close) is worse today. My jaw feels misaligned and I'm more unable to clench my molars together. I think it's stress, lack of sleep, chewing on LAs smoked meats, poor diet - I need to just let it rest. LA wants me to see a Dr for the TMD but I don't want to do it. 

Still no M, and better IF last few days. What's different? I'm tired and busy!? 

Friday commute only, late day at work and I rode home in the rain

Saturday They slept in and I waited, then late morning we did a ride/run with the kids. Slava got lost from us a few minutes and LA turned back to home. Arlette tried the Giant bike today!

Sunday I did my FIRST ride of the year and first ride south to Saline on Puppy. I want to get Frea out now. Then Arlette and I did a few miles on her new bike, she's learning. 

Struggle with the Balrog over the weekend, it's either there or it's not.