8 days success, more problems arise

M-free now, from last Sunday to today, so just over a week. But other issues. Azuc roared up last....Weds or Thurs?....and I quelled it yesterday. Kinda. At least the bag was safe. Well, kinda. The brigadeiros. But I held the goal of nothing poured. 

I held the goal of no queso, just the yogurt. I missed that mark last Thurs and Friday but held the weekend.

And I held to clean fasts all week, since last Sunday.

And I haven't mentioned this yet - but I'm Reddit and news free since May 27th! One month today! 

BUT -- 

And since last Weds (at least)  - rice. More last night.

And since last weekend - buckwheat. More this week. 

I have a question though, why is all above OK but not an orange? 

WTF - and the gains are there. No denying it. I feel it everywhere. 

My lower gut is cramped. I'm not hungry. I had such aversion Saturday after the road clinic and yet still my head thought of ways to avoid the aversion and get around it. While at the same time calculating the losses. 

There were no losses. Only gains. And major fucking CO all weekend long. To account for it, today is 20:4.

My CHOs are up to 150. Supposed to be 50.
My losses are supposed to be -10. Instead it's gains of +?