More mindlessness, then more mindfulness. A cycle

Wednesday BIKE! 30 mins on Bird
     COMMUTE 7 miles
Thursday RUN 3 miles in just under 30 mins
     STRENGTH 16 mins with increased weights
     COMMUTE 7 miles

I'm noticing a pattern, that I'm in a hurry and anxious when I get home. And now that we have phone call every night, it's an every night thing. Tuesday night we stopped at the Russian store and got smoked salmon. I mindlessly ate a bunch, and ended up overeating it. He also got walnuts, and I mindlessly ate on those with some M and butter. Ugh. 

Last night I waited to eat then hurried into it because the phone call was coming up, then during phone call instead of paying attention to either the food or the call I ended up bouncing back and forth, pulling veggies from future meals, rearranging the plans, all because I had to compensate the CO from yesterday. Then in a fit of "you did so good!" I started on cho, and now cho is gone and garbaged, and again I have an overage. Cho was banned, so was salmon and beef and nuts. Issues with those right now. 

So yesterday's goals of 30' of some cardio, IF to noon, and banned was only 1 out of 3.
Today's goals were run to gym, IF to noon, and same banned list. So far - 2 out of 3!

When I get home, I need to calm the fuck down about meals and calls. One or the other? Separate them. Stick to plan, really, stop the compensations and CO and wondering. Stick to the plan. Today's plan: veggies with peanut chicken and a salad.

The gym was great, I'm increasing weights on most all exercises, and I'd like to have another routine to alternate in. The run was OK, but flat energy. How did I make myself run any further in previous weeks? 

I'm drafting a long email that was originally to Coach P but now it's more like a letter for me. Not to me - that one arrived in the mail yesterday - but for me to read and contemplate.