123 is the goal. I have 34 days to my bday. I'd started out when I had 200 days to go with all these plans for change and improvement and Get Better. I didn't get very far on that. I'm still the same. Just more frustrated, disappointed. Sometimes I wonder if I should give up and just stay where I am. But then it seems like things would just get worse if I quit trying. I wonder that if I quit trying, instead of staying in place I'd slide backwards. So I have to keep trying just to stay where I am.
What kind of treadmill is that? The Red Queen? Looking...
“My dear, here we must run as fast as we can, just to stay in place. And if you wish to go anywhere you must run twice as fast as that.”
The Red Queen's Race. Not sure it is really meant to apply the way I'm using it.
I keep saying i'M cHaNgInG but I'm NOT. I continue to fall into Moria every single fucking day. Every day I wish that I'd quit the mug meals, containers, standing, Azog, noms, randoms, unmej, before 8, after 8, doubles, not waiting, boreds, ugh etc etc etc
I've listed some things that can specifically be addressed. These are the last of the Monster, mini Monsters.
1. I will stop the containers. Mayo salsa yogurt pickles
2. I will stop the PP and PP out of recipe, also anything similar
3. I will preplan for my best day
4. I will WAIT for dinner and the right time and stop being alone
5. I will get away from the ctops and sit down to focus
6. I will leave Moria and Azog behind
7. I will delay until 14:10
8. I will stop the unmej randomess
9. I will be accurate and honest
10. I will stop the triggers
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