afternoon - plan to WALK to be outside. ETA - Walked! But with issue.
The photo seems to be a silly thing, but it's the first goal I do each day. I haven't done anything with them. I feel and look puffy today, so no weigh in. A few days ago I blamed the scale for being "off" and unbalanced, but LAs weight seems the same. Denial.
I did an indoor workout today, I don't plan them and don't think I will. At least just yet. I'm really enjoying the outdoor stuff more even if it's dark and colder.
Coming home to Moria, CHANGE this.
ETA: came home to let dog out, change clothes, grab a snack, then walk! Good. Came back from walk and had another "snack". Hurried to aldi and came home to yet another .... "snack". Went to bed full.
So. Partial fix. But no, not really.
And LA was upset that I chose to walk instead of going with him to sushi. I just don't like sushi that much at all, to watch him eat it while I have other things to be doing. But I'm wrong there, I love being with him, but why not sitting there?! What's my defect here, think this through. I had a plan all day: walk then aldi and then phone call, all in time. After 6pm he says "go with me to sushi" and it's like a wrench in my plans! No, I had plans, I don't want to disrupt them for something I don't want to do (watch him eat) when I had things I wanted to do (walk and aldi).
And LA was upset that I chose to walk instead of going with him to sushi. I just don't like sushi that much at all, to watch him eat it while I have other things to be doing. But I'm wrong there, I love being with him, but why not sitting there?! What's my defect here, think this through. I had a plan all day: walk then aldi and then phone call, all in time. After 6pm he says "go with me to sushi" and it's like a wrench in my plans! No, I had plans, I don't want to disrupt them for something I don't want to do (watch him eat) when I had things I wanted to do (walk and aldi).
So I was ready to abort my walk and instead walk at 8pm during phone call. That way he gets time with me and time with kids. But he didn't want to wait for my last 25 minutes of walking. I didn't want to abort my halfway done walk to sit in a restaurant. Ugh, this is hard to explain.
I want to spend time with him, NOT on the phone talking to kids and NOT over Youtube and NOT just sitting in a car going somewhere. Sitting in a restaurant is preferrable, but I put my walk over doing that. But I was frustrated that he couldn't wait for me, that he planned it last minute and expected me to comply, that............. the best answer would have been for me to abort? But I was able to get walk and groceries and get home before he did, and he didn't get back from sushi until right before 8pm - so there would NOT have been time to do both like he wanted. So what happened was for the better.
I want to spend time with him, NOT on the phone talking to kids and NOT over Youtube and NOT just sitting in a car going somewhere. Sitting in a restaurant is preferrable, but I put my walk over doing that. But I was frustrated that he couldn't wait for me, that he planned it last minute and expected me to comply, that............. the best answer would have been for me to abort? But I was able to get walk and groceries and get home before he did, and he didn't get back from sushi until right before 8pm - so there would NOT have been time to do both like he wanted. So what happened was for the better.
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