Monday We have a dog, she's home alone for the first time for 2 hours as a test. Please be good! Yesterday I had to go shopping for pants, black ones in case I need them this week, and while there found green pants that I like! Wearing them now. Coincidentally, or was it, I watched the video Friday or Saturday night and it reminded me of that look. A goal.
My MBP: To fully recover from my Monsters and lose the weight that came with them, so that I like who I am on the inside and like what I see on the outside.
Goal is to lose weight. Why? I don't like how I look. Why not? I see my failures, my lack of progress when I look in the mirror. Why does this bother you? It's a reminder of Monster, the years of it? Why don't you want to remember? Because it's still here? Why is it still here? I'm not fully recovered. Why is this a problem? Because every day it hangs over me, every day I have to get past the same dislikes and habits. Why does every day have to be that way? Because every day I face Moria and look in a mirror. And I don't like what I see there.
Tuesday Meeting with the boss who thinks I can accomplish the unrealistic in a short amount of time. Can I? Who's wrong here? Walked multiple times during the day, including a quiet calm warm at night walk with Nova under the moon. Another standing random meal for M3. FIX.
Wednesday RUN 1-1.5 miles with LA, my first run in over a week!! At least since before the kids weekend October 13th or so. Felt great. And a COMMUTE, at least a half (rain expected later) and the first also since before the 13th.
Today is a special day, and gets a special post!
Waiting now for days for news about gramma. Always in the back of my mind.
ETA - wednesday night got stressful - phone call went bad. LA was off studying, distracted. We went to bed, without really spending good time together. I was frustrated (again) that he put her energies to someone else (he was upset after call) and not to me, when I was directly trying for it. But we're OK.
ETA - wednesday night got stressful - phone call went bad. LA was off studying, distracted. We went to bed, without really spending good time together. I was frustrated (again) that he put her energies to someone else (he was upset after call) and not to me, when I was directly trying for it. But we're OK.
Thursday Dog walk in the morning, post-rain super colorful trees, warm and calm. How long will this last? The wet leaves would make for a slippery commute, and today is my first day wearing the wrist brace. I'm painting on the mountains watercolor. Gramma, still waiting, it's painfully long for us and hopefully not for her.
ETA Shortly after getting home, I got the call about Gramma. Love you, and please be at peace with Grampa Joe.
ETA Shortly after getting home, I got the call about Gramma. Love you, and please be at peace with Grampa Joe.
I stopped buying rice cakes, and now without those I range repeatedly through the kitchen, full but dissatisfied.
Friday LA was up 3am and left before 5am for MO, I'm on my own with Nova until next Sunday (maybe even Monday morning). And Nova has her first full day alone, I'm keeping it as short as I can.
I don't have plans for traveling back home, yet, but I do have many many things I want to get done this weekend - and so tomorrow will be chores, meal prep, and errands in a bit to get through the first half of November done for chores.
Weekend Got so many chores done! Caught up, lots of oats munches, NO AZUC. All meal prep into next sunday. Readied for travel.
Monday and Tuesday Travel to and from Illinois for Granma and family.
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