Happy Birthday to me!! It's the annual birthday post.
Welcome to 48 years. Recently I re-read the 47th year post and was dismayed to find that I'm talking about the exact same things in my head still, one year later.
Match Day is 142 days away.
Azuc is 22 days gone.
Monster is 411 days gone.
Move in Day was 1423 days ago.
and Balrog has been Dead for 1609 days.
Well, I couldn't say all that a year ago! I'm still battling M3 issues, still occasionally having azuc issues (as evidenced by the only 22 days number), and still thinking way too much about it all.
Gramma is probably going to pass away this week, LA leaves for a week in MO this Friday.
I'm right at around 100 books read/finished so far this year. We have a dog, one week as of today! She's already learned lay down, bang, and nose-bump a post-it (clicker training).
I tried Noom in late May, after having been offered a $3000 (!!) 6-month training opportunity that I turned down (no regrets doing that at all). I realized, that $3000 could buy a lot of Noom, MFP, gym apps, and more - but since then I've seen a 5-pound loss that seems like so little. Especially after that point in early April, while on a DTE trail run with LA, that 5 pounds a month this summer would get me close to goal, and now since that point I've lost 7-9 pounds, depending on the day, and there I've stalled. I need to make changes.
So to that goal, I've started (as of Saturday Sunday Monday) another meal plan to help get normalized. I've thrown away the last of the rice cakes. We've stopped eating dairy and mammalian meat (to both our benefit). The past few weeks I've been eating way too many rice cakes, and apples and hummus, and sometimes only 6 egg whites a day for protein. My arthritis flares up (I think that's what's happening, but it's also related to travel), my energy is terrible, my motivation is fucking zero. So, a change. Follow this plan for now to boost variety, protein, and mindfulness about what I'm choosing.
Also to that goal. I need to sit and eat without the fucking phone. Jeezus, just do this. Jeezus, just try. Please do this for us.
I'm barely biking and running, less than barely going to the gym and never swimming.
Surgery for the gall bladder is on hold, waiting.
LA has his first residency interview Right Now! With U Mich.
We move next May.
Court is delayed from September April September December ????? and I don't know if we'll ever get there.
My left hip and right ankle occasionally flare up, and for the past few months my right wrist seems to have a nerve injury.
I get to paint most days, no, it goes in spurts. Lately not much at all, two weeks ago it was every day.
Stained glass - not since April or May.
As for what's in my head, I've been able to draw together a MBP to build on, the outcome and goals of which are geared towards getting me to where I like and maybe even love what I see when I look in the mirror and when I get inside my head. The negativity. The sense of failure. The feeling of being lost from the person I used to love.
When I write this next year, I'll be in a new place maybe! Hopefully, new location, new goals, new lower weight, and new head space.
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