Tuesday - ELLIPTICAL 20 mins, STRENGTH push 20 minutes
Wednesday - RUN 3 miles, no commute for rain
Thursday - plans changed due to rain and appointments
Friday - RUN 3 miles with walking, rain, travel plans, no commute
Saturday and Sunday - at home. Nothing!! Full moon.
Monday - LA is out of town, for the eval in MO, and I'm on my own. I'm changing my schedule to now do HIIT/strength/gym on Tu/Th, and run M/W/F. Last week I lamented that I couldn't "get past" 2 miles running. Then today I do 4! Yay! But what was the hold up?
Why do I want this? Why do I sometimes think about "staying here" but then realize that is quitting? And I decide to keep going, yet then I decide to FUCK THINGS UP?
Monday night - GOOD home to moria, I'd planned to avoid RC but I had some anyway and made swaps to make it work. I didn't want to leave moria! I kept bouncing until I did my stretches and phone call. Out at 1838!
Tuesday - I went to the gym! Even though I had lots of guilt about LA just being home overnight, he had an appointment at 7-8 and I figured I'd go to the gym then. Then we had time afterwards before I left for work, and fixed my guilt. I went to the gym!!!!
Tuesday night - plan - STICK TO IT. I Stuck it!! My treat was extra rice cake with FB. Under 13
Wednesday - morning run ahead of a predicted rainy day. I ate my RC before leaving, 9am, I'm distracted because my left eye feels like there's something in in (since biking home yesterday) and my tummy growling and I just needed..... a rice cake?! No, 3 of them. That's it and the snack! This doesn't mean the rest of the day is thrown off, I can still WAIT until H again. I'm soooo tempted to have eggs now. WAIT.
Wednesday night - I kinda waited. I was hungry, so I ate, then from 12-7pm I was ok. Huh, just go with it sometimes. But last night after aldi they had pumpkin! And we bought grain free chips, and I went off the plan, to detriment, I didn't preplan the swaps and I thought all was equal until I looked and it wasn't. Ugh. But not bad. but ugh.
Thursday - The plan was to go to the gym, elliptical and strength, then commute. But rain all night and all day. And LA wanted time with me, so I changed so that we could spend the morning together and get a ride as he went to his 8am appointment. In the end, we are happier, I'm dry, but I missed my workout. I'll need to walk or something today to get my 10K. In the rain?!
Thursday night - What a day. Again, what a day. We talked to Kayla about evals, holy shit. We potentially found a dog. We came home in a frenzy of thought. Lev and I did sit down to eat, I had my salad, but I omitted the meat and thought "i'll eat hummus and pumpkin and etc instead". This worked but didn't work - I need to stick to plan because the swaps don't work. Then I did my cookup as planned - oatmeal and eggs and salad, but the Azuc WAS NOT planned and that came up with the oats to cook, and I ended up eating azuc/FB/oats. AGAIN. Not much. Not sick. But again. THEN, after 9pm, I started eating the grain free chips and dates! WTF. I realized what's happening, threw away the rest of the chips.
Friday - we're still in a thought frenzy. We ran, then I was Hungry and I ate my RC early. Just two. And I swapped the avo for FB. Why?! The avo is better!! Off to work, still a mental frenzy. Iowa interview, dog Nova, and coparenting.
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