Monday was Columbus Day holiday travel
Tuesday was gut upset and recovery, COMMUTE 3.6 miles
Wednesday still gut upset and more symptoms
Thursday same with less gut pain left work early
Wednesday, I don't even feel like biking or even like walking. WTF. My gut is cramped, moving my abdominal muscles causes a pain in the lower center abdomen. My right surgerized ankle has decreased ROM and hurts on the front again. My left hip hurts after sitting and I have a mild limp. And the nerve? pain in my right hand is definitely getting worse.
LA says it's the ulnar nerve, I agree but think more specifically it's the dorsal branch up in the wrist. It started in mid August during a bike ride (or at least, that's when I first noticed it) when I thought my RoadID was on too tight and had irritated something. Now, it's persistently hurting/burning/aching/something whenever I wrap my fingers around something to pull it, or push on those fingers in the wrong way. Think - pushing the button on the hatch lift of the car, lifting my little vacuum out of the charging dock, rolling my hand under and inward to hold something. It's getting worse. Ugh.
And. Nothing Changes if Nothing Changes. So today I need to change something, 800 style. I've done this before, 2017?
ETA my 800 became almost 1300, try and try again. How can someone with so much gut pain want to eat? I realized too that this is how my gut hurts when I eat corn, but when did I eat corn? Really?, When?
Thursday I woke up swollen, a few pounds heavier, headache, fingers and arms and face and body swelled up, less gut pain and GI symptoms, but still pained ankle and hip, pained elbow (I wore the elbow brace overnight), face feels lumpy and swollen and twitch. I'm sluggish mentally and physically. I walk slowly and no way can I bike or drive. I can mostly function at work, but I don't know how long I'll last here today.
Thursday I did leave early and we snuck of to Illinois Friday a raining morning visit then we snuck off to St Robert
Over the weekend, I had bad dreams about lev driving our car and we drove into a river and washed away. The next morning, I was 100% ready to cancel surgery if he didn’t cancel his appointment In Detroit that coincided with my surgery time
Over the weekend I also struggled with having my own space, my own wants and needs, and my own choices I felt like I was giving that all away to everyone else
And hotel SA telling me 1288 then 1260 and it’s a lie that hurts in a way. I certainly don’t feel that. Lies. And I can’t even look at myself
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