Usually I'm unhappy when my parking slots close, but this time I'm enjoying the extra mileage. However small it may be of an increase in mileage.
And thankfully it's not too far because I still don't have the energy for much more. I'm still worn out quickly, even by this little 1-1.5 mile ride in! Talking with coworker AH, this is probably a symptom of a depression I'm going through. I'm mentally fuzzed, not sleeping, messed up, craving odd things (see below), not interested, and have no energy. It's like over-training fatigue without the satisfaction of being over-trained.
Last night I was craving ginger. And of all things, soda. What?! So I combined the two and got some ginger ale this morning. I still had the craving so I figured it wasn't a whim. Yummy! I drank the entire 2L bottle this morning!
I think my mental low this morning was a diphenhydramine hangover? There's sort of a pattern to it. I'm awake later than I want to be, take the diphen to tip me into sleep, then I sleep in, and I feel sluggy all morning. AH suggested taking it earlier, as he notices the same thing.
Last night on the way home I was supposed to get milk for my kefir, but ended up getting cottage cheese, broccoli, instant potatoes instead. Made a pileup of my meals with this. But it came out awful and M, so I threw the rest away. Now I get to go shopping again
I've been watching for a chance to get back to a low carb pattern (it was great on the stomach!) and the excuse was that I didn't want to adapt while training and racing. Well, that's full off the table so why not now? Besides, I need to get away from this potato and rice based thing I've been doing since Badger.
One of my gripes this morning was that I tried oh-so-hard to be healthy after last year's shit, and this is where I ended up -- injured again. Part of me just thinks about quitting trying so hard. Just eat what I want. Fuck it. Eat red meat and eggs and whole fat dairy.
Boy, when my pendulum swings it goes full distance!
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