WasGonna

Sunday: WasGonna swim, but didn't. Ran instead.
Monday: WasGonna swim, but ended up off for the day.
Tuesday: WasGonna ride and/or run, but ended up off for the day.

So Monday and Tuesday I had a great reason--family in town visiting!

Sunday I WasGonna swim at WH but after sleeping in a little a preferred to just spend the morning with DH and DD, especially since we planned on working that afternoon. I told myself I'd just save time and drive to the Y Monday morning.

What was I thinking?! I had family Monday! OK so reschedule the swim for Wednesday.

Tuesday, slept in again. I could have got up and finished the entire workout...but no...I slacked.

Dammit.

I had yet another bad triathlon dream. So even in my sleep I'm giving myself a hard time about slacking so much. First I had the bad swimming dream in which I couldn't propel myself forward in the water. Then I had  the bad shoe shopping dream in which I went to BRR and was told that since my right ankle was 80% bigger than my left that they wouldn't honor the return policy. On top of that, I was wearing 3 pairs of socks!?

The dream last night was me and DH at an AR with Club members. It was a 2 day event, the dream was about the 2nd day. We slept in (wonder where I got the idea to dream about that...?) until 9 or so (the whole team, not just me!) and I was anxious about getting the site on time. EK was there, she said we can start whenever. I'm willing to bet AR's don't really work that way. Since we were running late, I knew I'd need my headlamp for the finish, but I lost it the day before by leaving it in the grass along the road. I walked out to find it and amazingly enough I did but the battery was gone! Stress all around.

I do want to get back into gear, but the road just seems so uphill from here. I've been in the pool once since Redman and so I envision me being a disaster for the first few weeks back at the pool. It's easy to want to avoid that as long as possible. I feel like I need more strength training. My bikes are still hanging on the rack, I haven't even pulled them off to look at them yet! Frea has been racked since SEPTEMBER!

Yes, the road back is daunting. That brings to mind the word Dauntless: not to be intimidated, fearless, intrepid, bold. Am I fearless? Ha! Refer to the above paragraphs! Well...OK..step back here. I'm not so much fearful as I am unsure of how to get started. Where the hell to I begin?

Probably by just packing my bags and doing what's next on the list. I just finished mapping out a training week from the full distance plan, scrapping some workouts and swapping days to see how it looks. Here's what I got:
Weds: 75' bike then a 45-60' swim.
Thurs: The Thursday group run!
Friday: 60' swim
Saturday: Volunteer at the DChubb, then a long ride. The plan recommends a trainer...what about the MCT?
Sunday: long run then aerobic bike.

Where do I begin? Right there. Get up tomorrow morning and get the bike done. Then drive to the gym and get the swim done.

We already have a word for this: Courage. The quality of mind or spirit that enables a person to face difficulty...without fear. Synonym list includes dauntless.