Thursday I listened to an audio book that said that "forbidden foods" just become problems. I used this as license to have RC and FB all fucking weekend - Friday through Monday. Now on Tuesday, I feel like shit, regret, shit, etc etc.
I have no plan it seems. I have no ... what?
Last night while coming back from Cape G LA proposed a walk and my FIRST CONCERN was M3. Not even H. But M# OMG WHAT WILL I DO.
Dear reader, M3 was fine and on time and in Moria.
I have anxiety. That's what it is, and this entire blog centers for the past 15.5 years since inception that's been the issue. I didn't talk about it much at first. It really started in 2009 with W30 as a tiny seed. Then 2013 as a sea-change into 2014-2015. Then from there, here we are.
I turn 50 in a few months. Opening my Reminder app....
71 days to finish the FAILED 108Hard
100 days until "Goal", which I think is the new 108Hard deadline
5 days no RC and FB - oh FUCKING HELL change that
401 days NoS and NoF
895 days no M
1905 Move in Day
2091 no Balrog
So now it's 1 day no RC and FB.
Change 71 days to Birthday ... 249 days away.
So "Goal". ?? What is that, EXACTLY?
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