Wednesday RUN 2 miles solo
Friday RUN 1 miles with Nova
Saturday RUN abt 2 miles with LA and Nova
Monday Some realizations this weekend. I've been hard on myself - work, home, body, mental, all - and it's not getting me anywhere. The huge weight peak didn't help, the pained "organs" and all that, but upon LA telling me I don't have goals, and MC telling me essentially that I'm "ineffective" -- it all wound into a "if everyone around you stinks, check your own shoes". And here I am. Checking my shoes. I could be doing better.
I could be organizing my time better. Why just this last Saturday in a letter to Jessica I realized that I do have time in the evenings, but where does it go? Why do I get up at 6am and have 3 hours to get to work but still have to hurry. Honestly, where does the time go!? This is an old question I've tried to solve with paper notes and apps.
I could get more done at work by consolidating all Ordering Tasks to one set hour a day. Like, 4-5pm is Lab Manager Time. On busy days, skip it. I could funnel tasks into a Power Hour type of plan, in which I cumulate all the silly things into an hour waiting for a machine to finish. I could stop typing things like this....
I could get more done at home? By paying attention to what I'm doing. Really, when I get home by 6pm and have 6-7pm open and then 745-bedtime open -- what am I doing that time? I'd like to be eating, walking dog, reading or painting, being with Lev. But it doesn't work that way.
I could get more done at work by consolidating all Ordering Tasks to one set hour a day. Like, 4-5pm is Lab Manager Time. On busy days, skip it. I could funnel tasks into a Power Hour type of plan, in which I cumulate all the silly things into an hour waiting for a machine to finish. I could stop typing things like this....
I could get more done at home? By paying attention to what I'm doing. Really, when I get home by 6pm and have 6-7pm open and then 745-bedtime open -- what am I doing that time? I'd like to be eating, walking dog, reading or painting, being with Lev. But it doesn't work that way.
I could be more aggressive and decisive about goals. I hedge and wait and delay. Why? I like to have all the information before doing anything and many times in my mind more time can mean more information. But still, I can have goals.
I could be so much better following my meal plan and exercise plan. Especially the meal plan because I put so much energy into planning that and then --- I come home to Moria. See above. What am I doing all that time? Why am I in the kitchen for what seems like HOURS after I come home?!
Start paying attention for a few days, get some data.
Tuesday Last night, was able to paint and read! Didn't walk dog and I need to start doing that - she woke me up 3 times this morning to go out. Brat. Progress to 1354, chest is feeling better and so am I. But I also realized this morning that I'm now feeling happy progress just getting back to what used to be a problem!
I'm at work early - don't lose it and get going!
ETA good then fell into nuts and fake butter. Got to paint and relax and pre bed walk, love it!
Wednesday Good run this morning, wanted to go more if I could. This weekend? Last night I realized Dates+butter is a bad idea -- so no more. Find something less... triggering.
ETA 2 dates, peanuts and butter again, too full at the end. 1600!!
Thursday CHANGE! ETA No change yet. Same issues. Rush to Moria, all time in Moria, keep going back to Moria.
Friday Super New Moon day. Set a list of 30 goals for 30 days. Put the seeds to basement. Put the peanuts to trash. Clean up and clear out.
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