AIP research; M fail

Yesterday I met EW and BE in the morning at the 6am run, saw them before and after their run. Ugh, it was hard, it felt like I was saying a sort of goodbye-but-not-really and I miss them!

I also haven't reconnected with other friends from STL yet, and the thought crosses my mind everyday. TH, TB, TV, LC, others. I know they're just a text away, but I feel like I'm ........   wrong somehow.....I'm not sure how to explain it. I feel like I'm always the one needing help or asking for something, and to call them up and say "hey I'm going into surgery" and "hey I'm leaving STL" just seems like yet another "well TJ needs something" or "TJ got injured again" or "TJ can't take care of herself". So instead I just don't reach out at all? 

I researched more AIP, and started the slide into it. I made a list of things I regularly eat and some replacement ideas. I'm still eating: eggs, coffee, tomato, rice, (oats already out), mustard, pepper, ketchup, raspberry dressing, ghee,and veg oils.

I've purchased cassava flour, coconut butter, blackstrap molasses, coconut flour, palm oil (and JUST GUESS what I did with it at first). That takes care of carbs and oils. I bought beef and chicken last night for the eggs. I'm doing tea and fruit-sparking water for coffee. I'm doing cucumbers for tomatoes and peppers on salads. GHEE? I thought that would be OK so I'm not sure on that one. 

Things I need to try: apples and sweet potatoes. The apples can stand in for honey and maple syrup in recipes. The sweet potatoes  can replace the oats and rice. 

One thing that will make life difficult is the no-processed-food-chemical rule -- citric acid, colors and flavors, spices, gums and thickeners, etc. This will really limit my shopping, how seriously to take this? 

And on that thought, what is going to by my metric of success? At first, my primary goal is to get through the surgery with low inflammation and fast healing. After that, the neuro symptoms. But they are come and go, I need to think more on this.  

So. When to start? Well we have the kids this weekend, and it's hard challenging to do then because LA likes to eat out, and eating out will be a challenge with this. I'm not going cold turkey, I just need to make this weekend work. 

But finishing the thought, there's an partial lunar eclipse next Tuesday the 26th at...starts at 3:47am and maxes out at 5:42am then falls off at the horizon. 

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Yesterday in Aldi I skipped the RC- so happy with myself. But on the way out got the Chex. And new as soon as I had it, that I should put it back. Thought about it, but thought the kids and the dog could enjoy too. FAIL. So bag is gone, and so is the AirBNB bag of azuc that shared with the chex. 

Again. Time back to zero.