A run and the 1st commute of the year

RUN 3 miles on track, walked the drills
COMMUTE! 9.2 miles

Still to this day, I mix up the commute mileage. I think in my head 4.2 miles to work...

I met BE at the track after having not run for about 2 weeks now. I'm afraid to look to see how long. This run felt not-so-good. I hate to say a run was awful because I'm still like YAY I got to run! I felt weak, clumsy, no energy, flat, dull. I couldn't even think good. Seems by my grammar and writing here, I still can't.

There were 2 teams prepping on the track, and BE and I discussed the option of moving our Tuesday run to TGP. I love running there and don't have many more opportunities for it!

Home to a shower - that was the plan. But instead some egg whites, then veg then oats and slipped into oats M. Ugh. I didn't get far at all, but it's just the fact that it's still there even in small doses.

Last night there was M of a mix, when will I learn to just say no. I was feeling sick after that, mostly the stress and the sudden relief of the stress once I got home. Not really just from M, just the sum total of the day. Up yesterday at 430am for the kids, drive to Waynesv and back, home to M1 and wait for moving company, LA leaves to MI, I go to work, Schnucks on the way home, walk dog (stress here, avoiding the mix), home to the mix, started normal then to M, then 2nd mix, then quit sick. Ugh. Some azuc too. All out now. 

I hate that I've been starting over so many times, I feel like I've made no progress in the past 2 years. Two years ago was Balrog! 677 days gone now. That's progress. But the rest is mired in my head, never to leave it seems.

I keep looking for change. It will happen here in just three weeks when the house gets packed. Then what!?