I wanted to, but I didn't want to

SWIM: I wanted to swim, but I didn't want to, so I didn't.
RUN: Didn't want to do this either, but I did it anyway: 6 miles in 58 mins.

I woke up on time this morning, but the mere idea of sleeping put me back to sleep. Which is unfortunate because this is the last week of outdoor swimming at CSP! That was the biggest reason I wanted to go--I won't see that pool again until next JUNE.

On top of the fatigue and lack of interest, my arms shoulder and back are wore out from some overhead work I've been doing at the house. The medallion is almost finished, and so is my swim season if I keep it up.

The rest of the morning was awful too. I had a lousy breakfast of pickens here and pickens there. Then a long day, sitting at my desk, getting stale. I was going to run over lunch but another heat wave came into town and I decided that if I'm feeling tired and sick the heat won't help any. So I pushed it later. And later. And later, til finally it was 6:20pm before I headed out the door. My nutrition and hydration were awful, yet I still wanted to run.

Actually I just wanted to hit the Reset button on the entire day, but life doesn't work that way.

Out the door, with the plan of doing the ~55min drills workout. I felt good the first 7-8 mins, then started to suffer. Then I ran into BE who just finished IML and chatted with him. I'd hoped some of his postIM energy would inspire me. I did. For about 0.5 mile.

This run sucked. By the time I started the drills I was ready to quit. By the time I reached 4 miles I was really ready to quit. It was about then that I noted my HR--high 160's! I was barely moving! :/

So I ditched the running drills and started to focus on HR. This was my first run since early this summer with HR so I didn't have a target range in mind. But this didn't feel like a 165+ effort. More correctly, the effort to run was high, it's just that the pace wasn't high. Key distinction to make. I ended up WALKING to bring my HR down to 120-130. WALKING. This sucked.

I went home and reviewed the day. Poor hydration. Poor nutrition. Poor sleep. Gee, wonder why it sucked so much?