Our first run in a long time, we really fell off the habit. We are in the thick of being ready to move, but not actually moving. We are STILL waiting for house loan shit to finalize, and just moments ago I got an email from B of A - I haven't opened it yet - hopefully it's good news. But LA wants the other lender, so we wait. Hence, I wait.
The eclipse is today, starting soon. At 2pm it starts, just after 3pm it totalities. At 2:20 it's a New Supermoon. I have been looking forward to this for 7 years, since the last one. For that I'd planned my trip into Illinois to watch, things have changed.
Here I go again, thinking Things Will Change, but not because of this eclipse. It's because of ME.
And I need to keep changing, it's 24 more days until work is done, 31 days until graduation, fucking awesome coincidence 100 days until my July 'date goal', 85 days of No S and No F, 578 days of No M, and 1776 days (freeeedom!!) from The Balrog.
100 more days, what can I do in 100 days? I like lists....ugh that's a LOT!!
5x20 lists? 10x10 is too much. Maybe that's what needs to change - the lists.
What definitely needs to change is like yesterday. Rice, then rice cakes, then rice. Standing! STANDING!? No plan, no measure, no effort. I was tired after a quick Nashville and back trip. It was 131.6 yesterday. 137.2 today. I know, it's not real between dehydration (likely) and carb bloating, but UGH.
Well, off to see if we can see it... more later!
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Later on Thursday, days later! This wasn't as stellar as the 2017, but just as great. This morning I was able to meditate on it. I'll change my phone again too, the wallpaper. Done.
A few weeks left at this job, and listening to the conversation with LN in the next bay, only encourages me to leave quickly. The conversation I had just minutes ago was encouragement too. Interview tomorrow. Only 1, so far? I'm putting a lot of hope on this one. It might not be enough. This weekend, more letters?
And as for the change? I'm aware, but ..... what's happening?! The dog was sick the day after the eclipse and I stayed home with Moria. Then since, Moria. But last night - I stayed OUT.
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