Tuesday RUN 3 miles on track, TIRED
Friday RUN 2 miles at home, TIRED
Saturday RUN 0.75 miles, and HIKE 5 miles TIRED
Whoosh, this week went by too fast. Vet on Monday, call about kids on Tuesday, Wednesday my first job interview preceded by a text from mom 3 minutes prior about dad, buzz home Weds night, home Thursday, busy Friday morning and then a stressed drive to Waynesville, RV overnight and stressed morning with a basketball game, and now at work on Sunday trying to catch up.
Wow, typing all that, breathe....
Tuesday's run was in surprisingly warm weather. The snow was mostly gone, leaving only only slushy grass between the street and track to worry about. I didn't get a warm up in, and I think this is why my HR was felt so high. With the chest HRM: the paces were only 12 m/m with walks and drills, 131 127 135 bpm each mile. I felt flat and drained, I kept wanting to walk, and my HR felt so high even if the HRM didn't reflect it.
Wednesday was a stressful day. 7:57 text from mom about dad, then an 8:00 zoom meeting with Michigan! A rush of stress chemicals, emotionally draining. We had a day preparing then drove to home. Thursday spent the day there, help James with homework, see dad's new truck, unpack my plants and the door I brought home, errands to town with James. I'm relaxed, but flat and sludgy, I can't remember things, I'm unmotivated, I'm not talking, I'm feeling depressed.
Friday up to buy tires for the RV and a change in plans to bring the RV with. My head isn't taking the change in schedule, I'm still feeling so disconnected. I've been feeling this way over a week now, but now the stress doesn't falls too hard - I'm not ready to leave home yet, but I know we're leaving anyway. So I get teary eyed and can't explain myself. LA relaxes our schedule, we get a short run in, I get all the chores in that stressed me (change bedding, pack cooler and lunch, get shower), and we leave - late!! So it was a long ride to Waynesville. Basketball game, back to RV site for the night, and a full moon overhead. As I'm falling asleep, I'm trying to figure out where to go with my health. I like to try changes 30 days at a time, I'm 17 days into low carb test, should I continue? I see how my mom's health isn't what it should be, is that the track I'm on? I don't sleep well and wake up early with the same thoughts on my brain.
Saturday morning I'm looking forward to the walk we talked about last night. But we slept in, didn't move fast enough, and I only got 0.75 miles run stressed because of a misunderstanding. Basketball game, then back to the RV site to walk a trail down to the river. I'm still emotionally flat, drained, no energy, I just want to curl up somewhere and hide, but I'm behind at work and behind at cleaning the house and feeling behind on life. I want to go home, but I don't to. My head aches, my back is tired and spasmy, my gut is heavy and bloated and pained from lack of BMs today. UGH. I eat my first meal of yesterday's eggs around 1pm, munch some ham, try to wake up. The walk drains me, I'm only looking at the road in front of me, I'm not talking, and I'm dragging behind. I feel awful.
It's been 17 days since I started aiming for low carb - less than 50 NC per day. I've been getting about that amount. No fruit or rice or sugar, that was the biggest change. It's draining enough to resist fruit, but I soon got used to it. But I'm unsatisfied after every meal and I just want MORE. More what? I dunno, so I try more fat and more protein and more low carb veggies and I just end up feeling overfull and pained from eating too much. It's like I'm never hungry, but I'm never satisfied. My metabolism runs OK in that I feel warmer but I'm so damned tired I don't move much. My body feels weak and I'm losing strength. These aren't good tradeoffs!
After 17 days, I think I'm starting to adapt, but then a day like this just kicks me. Can't keep doing it. So at the truck I have a clementine. It's sick to think that just the 40 calories of sugar from this orange might make me feel better, it's like using a drug. But I need it. I don't feel distinctly different however. What did I expect?
Later at the russian store, I get rice paper, paleo baking mix (almond flour and coconut flour) that's still low carb, and puffed rice. My plan for March: stop eating if you're not hungry!!! 1-2 fruits a day if running. And keep the carbs low below 60 (without running) and only in the evening. I get home, have some of my new foods, and the carbs are still 80-11, OK and a little higher.
Also for March: I want to do a running streak, at least 1 mile a day, but I also need to do PT and strength training. So I started that - alternating between core, resistance, and PT every 3 days.
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