Stupid pinkie toe

BIKE COMMUTE: 10+9.2

Well don't blame the toe, blame me.

I rode early into work to catch a time point and get some extra miles in. I've been logging extra miles on many days this past week -- catching when I can the extra 5 miles in TGP in my loopty-loop. Last week I was only a few miles short of 100 for riding!

Purposefully picked a different route to ride the first to-work-and-back (rode my old Compton-house route), got home, and in my now-usual brain fog and fatigue clumsiness caught the 5th toe of my right foot on the shower edge while stepping in. It wasn't a blinding broken pain, but DAMN it definitely hurt. And immediately looked out of place. Calmed myself down, finished the shower, tried to ignore it until afterwards. No need to further injury myself trying to look at in on a wet shower floor in the dark with water running in my face.

Inspection shows it's now aligned differently that the left, the toenail facing upward instead of outward, it looks like it's sticking out to the right too much. But it moves, bends, and doesn't have a focal spot of pain. I can walk on it, not very willingly but it will flex and bear weight.

So maybe not broken, maybe sprained or dislocated? Ugh. My first thoughts were about how I might have to drive to work, I might have to see yet another doctor, that I'll be limping more now.

Some quick googling said there's nothing a doctor would do, I could buddy tape it to the 4th toe, and it would just take some time if really broken.

Hours later I'm icing and elevated, I can wear my wide toe shoes and bike shoes with minimal discomfort, and I'm not limping all that much. Whew.

But here I am with my stupid toe, and my mind keeps berating me for being so shallow while AmberR is dealing with Ben's death, how horrible that must be, and how heartbroken the family is. While I'm worried about a stupid toe.