Increase carbs, means increased....

RUN/WALK with Slava, 1.45 miles total but only half that running?
COMMUTE 10 miles thanks to LA forgetting something he needed at the VA

Last week I noticed that increased rice means increased weight.
I confirmed that observation by eating increased oats and fucking jelly last night. 
Fuck.

The New Bee that emerged will make mistakes, but fucking bloody hell - like, the NEXT DAY?

So. 

I've been eager to start my new Planner, and it's starting today. It's like, I can't log or make changes until it started? Dumb, but whatever. 

Starting today, marking if I waited, preplanned, prepared, preplated, followed, exited, and Nailed M3. This is the last of the Monster to get rid of.

Starting today, no jelly or little bowls or ketchup or gummies/wrong way.

Staring today, you have to WAIT to get gummies. 

ER visit

I don't want to talk about it. 

Went in Thursday July 28th 2pm. 

Came out Friday July 29th 4pm. 

A New Bee came out at that time. 

Not a Perfect Bee, but a Changing Bee. 

Increased rice, means increased...

Tuesday RUN 3 miles in just under 30 mins
     COMMUTE 7.6 miles
Wednesday COMMUTE halfway, got rained out

Last two nights, after Monday being a 1.8, I'm yesterday 4.0 and today 4.8.

End of the month "month" things? No other sign of that yet.

T= stuff a mess still...

And last two nights of dinner predominantly rice, rice cakes, imperial spread butter. 

Bloody hell. STOP THIS SHIT.

LA is committed to his changes. I need to commit. 

NOT wait until August 1st. 

Or July 31st. 
Or tomorrow. 

No more imperial butter spread, unless measured. Rice cakes, 2 per day. No more rice!

Family reunion

Sunday RUN 1 mile, walk 1 mile up N24th Rd

Monday COMMUTE 7.6 miles, more? 

I've lost track of time, what we've done, when I did it. Where does the time go? Why does it seem to be falling away from us? 

I haven't done stained glass at all. I haven't done watercolor or drawing since the beginning of June, even though Slava asks and asks. My mind is too fried, I'm mentally tired. I dropped any pretense of a running regimen. The gym -- not since beginning of July which is about when I realized that strength training as I was doing wasn't getting me to my goals. And now in the last week, even a morning walk or a run isn't happening. Weekend bike rides - we've done one!?

Duolingo is on maintenance. My meals are on repeat. War and Peace just waits for me to finish the last 100 or so pages. I have a to do list, languishing. 

What's going on? Stress. The stress of STEP1, alpha gal, needs at work, upcoming GAL and travel and summer and all else. It's a blessing of sorts that my sister and family are not coming this upcoming weekend (she's too busy too, and that's a sort of comfort to me, to know it's not just me). 

We survived a weekend on alphagal changes. I'm following his eating patterns now, eating only what he can so I can be aware of the foods, shopping, recipes, needs, flavors. We'll see.

Saturday on the drive back he said he want to do low fructose. We can do that, but it's another list I need to dig out of my archives. Low fructose - been there done that, can do it again. 

On the plus side, my T=7 stuff has stopped at least a few days! My joint pain and itching from dairy is washed out. 

T=7, day 2

Thursday Half COMMUTE due to rain and hail storm
Friday no COMMUTE due to awful stomach issues, still!

Day 2 now of awful gut output, leaving the detail at that. I can take a few guesses of what's going on. With LA's Tuesday dx of alpha-gal, we're in a bit of mess and disorder. Two nights ago dinner was rice cakes, grape jelly, PB, and imperial spread butter, rice, and random. Last night I pulled it together and fixed it, minimized the bad foods and followed plan, but woke up to the same. I'd thought the imperial spread OD was the problem. It could still be. Plan for now - stop magnesium and fiber, stop imperial spread beyond 2 serves, and pay attention.

Recent allergy results and Alpha gal. It means for him: no beef, pork, salami, gelatin, gummies, marshmallows, peanut butter, walnuts, hazelnuts, chestnuts, beef broth, shashlik, hamburgers, sausages, gummy bears?, so much that he loves to eat. He'd already quit nuts, but now peanuts is on the list too. Just this past camping weekend, he was eating hamburgers, peanut butter, marshmallows. Now.... he can't? 

I'm still in denial, he's in shock. I've been through this before many years ago, and I'm not maybe being very helpful by using myself as a comparison. And this is allergies -- I don't call mine allergies mine are intolerances (and with my denial, possibly autoimmune which is worse, denial) so I (think) I can skate by dealing with cross contaminations. But allergies -- the cross contaminations are a real thing to worry about!?  He has a follow up in a few weeks, until then, we try eliminations. There's also a possibility that other symptoms he's having, which have increased in severity since he stopped dairy and replaced it with meat (coincidence?) will subside as the meat is removed. Gawd I hope so.

In the meantime, I'm stopping those foods too, to get them out of the house and away from things. I'm replacing wooden spoons and cutting boards if needed. This will also help me to come up with recipes - if I need to eat too, then I'll push harder to search for stuff. And should I track his nutrition the next few weeks? Does that just overwhelm the to-do list? 

I dunno. 

I do know, that I have to fix this current gut issue. Awful noises are coming from my gut, I'm afraid to go to a bathroom and see what happens!

Are you stressed, you look like you're losing weight?

COMMUTE 7.6 miles again smoky outside

Said by someone in another A level lab at work. Does it look like that?

After camping, I don't have a good number yet. But .... no. 

New moon today. It's actually kinda overwhelming and distracting to have it. So much to write. 

No workout today as LA had an early appointment, and the schedule changes changed my morning up too much.  I did get a Sugar Walk in at least. More tonight? 

I ate chocolate, ketchup, yogurt, oatmeal, peanut butter, grape jelly, marshmallows while camping. It feels awful, but not as awful as it used to be. 

I've really cut back on FODMAPs otherwise - broccoli, cauliflower, onion, garlic - but again it's hard to say because being post-camping has me all out of whack. 

Get back to work. So unfocused. 

Camping at Dunes. No more S'mores

HIKING at the Dunes

EATING at the Dunes

GUT PAIN at the Dunes. 

Ugh. 

New Moon tomorrow. 

And I bought a great new planner, and I think I want one for home as well.