Friday, May 9, 2025

Failed yesterday. What do I need to do differently!?

Still nothing for workouts. This needs some explaining, below. I'm able to walk on the ankle much more, yesterday I walked the dog up the hill and back, first time since the injury last Monday. Good there. I'm being diligent about wrist care, deviating and positioning, gooder there too. 

I was going to go home this weekend, but events conspire against me. RVLC has a 3pm blood that would keep me until 6pm. Home by 7pm, I'm already packed but load the car and leave and arrive by 1-2am. No Bueno. 

LA is struggling these last few days, and he's been saying "I won't keep you from going", but this morning he quietly asked me to stay. 

And just minutes ago, RVLC came 2 hours early. Up until LA saying that, I'd held the view that if the sample came early enough I'd be able to leave. And here I am, unable to leave. 

It sets off a feeling of wanting to cry. 
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I failed twice this week - during the Tuesday WFH day and yesterday (Thursday) after no-good-reason other than SHITTY HABITS. Standing at the counter for M1 both days, phone in hand. Off plan and random. Yesterday again at the counter with my pre-plated, but standing with phone and adding off plan. I ended up with a CO meal today! 

Dinner as planned is so unsatisfying and it's occurred to me this morning that I could also do a lunch-like prepack of the big grain/veg thing I've been making. And that's my dinner meal. The new non-dairy protein powder is planned for lunch. On monday, without other plans, I had to do a tuna can, cheddar chunk, apply brekkie that totally worked for hours. Why not that as a meal?!? 

Why not CHANGE M3 to a casserole/bucket meal instead of a meal that just sucks of chicken, pile of cold veg, etc? 
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What do I need to change to get more done? I did Brenda's time analysis yesterday and was shocked to think that my workday could be more productive? I say the same for my homeday. 
Think on this. 

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