RUNNING!! I'm running 2-3 miles 3 times a week. I'm not closely tracking numbers. I'm also maintaining the 30-day workout challenge started in June and using a random number generator to pick what day to do. And yesterday I set up my workout corner in the rec room. I'll be surrounded by my past - IMWI2010 through to 2014 and 2016 racing success pictures. Since 2016, my life fell apart. So I don't have pictures hung up about that.
Last night while trying to fall asleep, feeling my lower leg bones (especially the left, IT band?) ache, I realized it's been 5 years since Balrog. So why do I say no positive change?
And M, he's been out for 668 days. 1.82 years.
No S, No F: 174 days!!
That my, dear Bee, is change.
The change I'm not seeing, but wanting, but apparently not wanting bad enough to do it, is the goal that was 11 days from today - 123108. Remember that? Ha, like it's counterpart, it keeps getting put off. The counterpart, almost 2 years now. Seriously, I can't wait for that to be my end goal time?
But I do the oooh it's Independence Day into failure.
I do the oooh it's a New Moon, into....well I haven't failed that yet. It was only last night.
When I do this, then ...
When this happens, then ...
Like I expect some omen or magic to just *poof* change shit and Whoop shit is changed!!!
My dear Bee, that is not how change happens. The changes we made before listed above, happened because YOU CHANGED.
Go ahead and read about JKO. About P KM. Pictures, comparisons, that's not going to do it.
Listen to podcasts about change. That's not enough either.
Keep working the Actual Logs. You fail those daily, stopping around mid day. (I get it, you're busy). And keep working on the Self Awareness, again, you stop after getting tired.
The rest of your life can't be like this!!
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